Conversation Between Revent and etothepii

Hi!!!!

oh that's weird, never got it

Yeah, I saw it! and I replied (from another number) as I changed my number.

Hey! Not too bad, I sent you a text, want to continue the conversation over there? Not too much of a fan of the wall convos actually

Hey, Jay! how did results go?

Ah right. I can imagine, my phases are generally in the winter haha. But yeah, I totally get you though. But the best thing we can do is forget about the past and look towards the future. Yeah, insomnia comes with it ; I remember being up until 3-4 every night just lying down in bed doing absolutely nothing. Those were pretty dark days for me as well. How do I cope? I didn't. Even this winter, the whole christmas holidays, I barely ate anything, maybe one meal in a day or every other day and I spent all my time in my room either sitting there doing absolutely nothing or just watching Scrubs. It's a mean cycle The worse you get, the less you want to do anything that can help haha. Then it just keeps getting worse.

Haha, have fun with that Exam times means I do put on quite a lot of weight due to not being home and having junk crap outside so gotta fix that up this summer I see the appeal, but as you said, it'd be a bit lonely and I'm not exactly the most extrovert person out there Nah, China's on my own, which is why I'd like to do something else with someone haha.

oops, accidentally posted this on my own wall

I don't know, there wasn't like a set timing, but they occurred pretty much throughout the year, and still do, although they're less frequent nowadays. Not the best days of my life, I'll admit. Plus I used to have problems with self harming and the lot. The worse thing is these episodes are (more often than not) accompanied by insomnia, which just doesn't help.
What about you? and how do you cope? I took up running, and it helped for a while, until I injured my knee and had to quit for a while, which just sucked,

Yup, lifting as in lifting weights
Idk, I do see the appeal in travelling alone, but yeah I see what you mean. I think i'd end up feeling quite lonely most of the time if I was to travel on my own. I'm presuming you're going to China with other people?

Yeah, I've had my fair episodes of depression as well They suck. Random, but when were your episodes of depression? Were they all year round or certain times of the year?

Lifting, as in lifting weights? I REALLY want to travel, but would really strongly prefer if there was someone with cos it's double the fun haha. Any ideas on where you want to travel? If I can't find anyone between now and probably Aprilish, I may just spend my whole time in China or something, which is like last option for me

Ah, I can imagine that being quite bad. I hated my GCSEs. not because of the exams, but random episodes of depression and stuff, but that's a long story

To be fair, if it wasn't for all my ambitious plans on travelling, I really have no idea what I'll be doing lol, except that I'm planning on making a start on lifting I've wanted to start forever and this summer seems to be a good time

Yeah, I get you haha. You think that's bad though? At GCSE, all of our practicals went down by like 7 marks each when sent to moderation You can imagine how much impact that had on our grades

Yeah, I know what you mean, the de motivation is really hard to fight against, but I guess I just did what I had to do. There's no shortcuts so may as well do the best I can.

Yeah, I've got a job as a HCA until December. I've been thinking of going to China for a few months as well. But to be honest, I don't really know what else to do after that because I have so much time left and not really feeling travelling on my own