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Heya, sorry its taken a week to get back to you, I didn't check my visitor message thingies. Yeah I'm good, I come on and off on this forum and RYL, and I occassionally pop on MSN. I haven't spoken to you in a while. How's you?
Awww same its strange because everyone else seems to be coping a lot better now and I feel weird showing any sort of emotion infront of people now. When in fact I miss her more and more...
Yeh if I've had a good time or had a laugh afterwards I'd feel guilty or even cold hearted to some extent. Yeh i feel as if if i do laugh infront of them they might judge me. Exactly its a major convo stopper! Ooh wow forensics sounds good, what was your final year project?
I was more upset than expected I cried nearly all day infront of everyone- i think visiting her grave just added to it. I dont cry infront of people :/ Oh so would you urm visit the place where her ashes were scattered? Sorry if thats a silly question its just I dont know of anyone who was cremated.
I just had a rant feel free if you need to.
Aw hope you're feeling better now Same here! Really whys that?
Urm my personal tutor does, however I havent told many people.. I find it awkward as in if I do tell them I'll be expected to behave in a certain way or idk really! Oh what do you want to go into? Aha good luck
Hmm it was out celebration thing on sunday- Eid. Kinda like xmas...hit me hard tbh. It was the first time I went to visit her grave as well it kinda feels too real now :/
Yeh I'm having an off day today :/
Theres nothing really in particular, yknow when generally everything gets you down for no reason. When you know the real reason is you're missing your mum
Ah I see, yeh volunteering sounds like a good idea. Relevent experience for your cv. What about masters? I'm back at uni unfortunatly, struggling 'cuz I cant get my head round anything and often find myself going off into a day dream
Aw good to hear
On and off week for me lol.
What you doing now then that you've graduated?
How you doing? Hope you're feeling better than before
Ah I'm sorry to hear that, I've been through that phase and I've realised although it always gets you down there's a time period of say 3-4 days when you feel as if you can't cope and then you feel a little better for a while and go into that phase again. Maybe you're going through that? Did that even make sense?
I'm going through the phases atm, I think it'll take a lot longer for us to get more used to it.
But if you ever need to talk, feel free. I'd like to think you can relate to me x
Wondering if you're ok? Coping?
Here if need to talk
Ps: sorry I dont message you more, I always remember and then seem to forget again
How are you lately? I don't see you on RYL much and I'm onny/offy with MSN.
Yeh like just when youre gettin used to the idea BAM it hits you again
Oh no its horrible when the cancer starts spreading, oh gosh i really hope it works. Fingers crossed, i hope it does. Also remember when I told you about the apricot kernerls? Have I cant remember? Lol anyway my mum has started them, her chronic cough caused by the cancer has reduced incredily! I urge you to try them (after her chemo not during).
Shes just had radiotherapy for 5 days and shes on steriods, wil try chemo soon. You can talk to me too and I know you understand tbh the only person I know of who understands is you. Cancers meant to be widespread but I have meant anyone in our situation!
Wish you all the best for you and your mum xx
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- Join Date 16-08-2007
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Join Date 16-08-2007
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