I'm sick of being FAT and DISGUSTING

I never ******* loose weight. I'm so tempted to just not eat anything but I know that if I do that I'll still be flabby for ages and no tone - yuck. But when I try and do it the healthy way, eat low fat, unrefined grains, high intentisty interval training, general exercise etc. that doesn't work either!!!

I've had a BMI of about 25 for my entire teen life. I feel so disgusting. I feel my half-sister's brother and his cousin (he's a model by the way) look at me like **** because I'm not thin and beautiful like them, I feel utterly inferior to my sister who is a model and a dancer, my mother tells me to change all the time (she doesn't even like me) and I feel like people at school don't want to know me either because to them I'm fat and rank.

It doesn't help I used to have severe acne either as I still have a few marks and scars from that.

I'm a size 12 but I'm disgusting, flabby flabby, and it seems that no matter how hard I try I'm always going to be FAT and therefore feel ugly. I'm just so pissed off.

I never ******* loose weight. I'm so tempted to just not eat anything but I know that if I do that I'll still be flabby for ages and no tone - yuck. But when I try and do it the healthy way, eat low fat, unrefined grains, high intentisty interval training, general exercise etc. that doesn't work either!!!

I've had a BMI of about 25 for my entire teen life. I feel so disgusting. I feel my half-sister's brother and his cousin (he's a model by the way) look at me like **** because I'm not thin and beautiful like them, I feel utterly inferior to my sister who is a model and a dancer, my mother tells me to change all the time (she doesn't even like me) and I feel like people at school don't want to know me either because to them I'm fat and rank.

It doesn't help I used to have severe acne either as I still have a few marks and scars from that.

I'm a size 12 but I'm disgusting, flabby flabby, and it seems that no matter how hard I try I'm always going to be FAT and therefore feel ugly. I'm just so pissed off.

Ah well I already knew that, hence why I made this thread because it doesn't bloody work for me. I have created both a caloric deficit and I'm exercising hard. I figured that if I do both I'll loose body fat % quicker and more effectively. Is my reasoning wrong or something?



I've done that before but I stick to what men's diets on fitness forums suggest but decrease it by a few hundred as I'm female. More than anything I focus more on what I eat and keeping the total calories consumed between 1300-1500 perhaps and stick with that.



Wow that really helped MY confidence.

Did you not have a stunning black and white photo of a girl with some tattoos in your sig a while back? Was that not you?...If it was you are soooo far from being an ugly blob!

Maybe I should just accept God wants me to be fat. I'm surprised no one came to that conclusion before I did.

Well that scientific beauty thing said my face is too long, my ears are too short and my nose is too wide

********. I've never put my picture up on this site or ever linked any pictures of me to TSR so don't try and plump up my confidence with ********. Otherwise, thanks for the advice.

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If you don't like being FAT, you should try being NTFS.

People don't seem to understand that I've already worked hard to lose weight, I've done the whole preparing my own meals, focusing on willpower, be positive, it will work, weighing myself everyday, making progress charts, progress pictures, joining forums for inspiration, making myself keep going even when I want to fall over and be sick and so on but the point is it doesn't work. I don't loose weight properly. I stay around the same weight once I hit it and that's the end of. I'm upset because I'm never going to be comparable to everyone else in my family no matter how hard I try, I'm not even going to have the body I want. I'm not just trying to lose a few pounds and get the odd 'you've lost some weight' comments. I don't see why it should be as hard as wanting to throw myself into a wall everyday mainly because no one ever sees any progress because the fact is there rarely is any despite my efforts.

And I mentioned this earlier but I've seen doctors about it a few times now and they just tell me to exercise more and eat healthily. They don't seem to know anything about proper body fat loss.

How am I meant to accept myself when my family tell me and look at me like I'm disgusting, and even everyone else including my friends compares me to them and wonders why I got the short end of the stick. Try living in a family of models and then you can criticise my warped perceptions.

How am I meant to accept myself when my family tell me and look at me like I'm disgusting, and even everyone else including my friends compares me to them and wonders why I got the short end of the stick. Try living in a family of models and then you can criticise my warped perceptions.

I never ******* loose weight. I'm so tempted to just not eat anything but I know that if I do that I'll still be flabby for ages and no tone - yuck. But when I try and do it the healthy way, eat low fat, unrefined grains, high intentisty interval training, general exercise etc. that doesn't work either!!!

I've had a BMI of about 25 for my entire teen life. I feel so disgusting. I feel my half-sister's brother and his cousin (he's a model by the way) look at me like **** because I'm not thin and beautiful like them, I feel utterly inferior to my sister who is a model and a dancer, my mother tells me to change all the time (she doesn't even like me) and I feel like people at school don't want to know me either because to them I'm fat and rank.

It doesn't help I used to have severe acne either as I still have a few marks and scars from that.

I'm a size 12 but I'm disgusting, flabby flabby, and it seems that no matter how hard I try I'm always going to be FAT and therefore feel ugly. I'm just so pissed off.