I would like to offer my sympathies, and also boast that the other week I was quoted a whopping twelve months for waiting for even an initial appointment with a psychologist. Psychiatrist's gonna try some sneakiness and get me a psychologist as my key worker instead though.
a year? wow? that's awful! that's good though if they are gonna help you out
Nawh .... thanks for that, was feeling properly **** this evening and that has made my day! I was wondering where that was going at the start, but got quite nice towards the end You aren't shrivelled and bitter though hun, you are lovely and sweet .... but ok then I will allow myself to be the cake in this situation!
You feeling better then huni?
Lol... I have to admit as I was writing it I was wondering how I would dig myself out of the hole I was clearly in.
Yea I'm feeling better.... Dunno why that dream shook me up so much. Still... It's over.... Last for now. Sorry I wasn't able to be there for you today.
Lol... I have to admit as I was writing it I was wondering how I would dig myself out of the hole I was clearly in.
Yea I'm feeling better.... Dunno why that dream shook me up so much. Still... It's over.... Last for now. Sorry I wasn't able to be there for you today.
haha well you managed to dig yourself out of calling me a cake quite well
Things can shake us up quite badly every now and again, its just part of life! Hope you don't have any more like that though hun, and I am glad you are feeling better for now!
I'll be fine though, it is nice to be able to be there for you every now and again, although I would obviously much rather you weren't feeling rubbish, but its nice being able to be there for other people too
Forgive them? Man, there's no way in hell I can forgive those *****. I realize how awful that makes me sound and I know kids do stupid **** but these people weren't kids they were like 17/18 at the end and still doing it. That's well within the age of criminal responsibility. I was diagnosed with avoidant personality disorder, which I'm 100% sure was caused entirely by years of bullying. I can't make friends now, I can hardly leave the house, I can't talk to people, I can't get a job, I'm an inferior human being all because of what these ***** did to me.
If I had my way I would take each of them one by one in a room and torture them slowly and painfully. The guys at Guantanamo would think they got off easy. I would make sure that they suffer even a bit as much as I did from what they did. I realize this makes me sound like a horrible guy but it's how I feel. I'm not a Christian, I don't believe in turning the other cheek, I believe in vengeance.
I actually wanted revenge but was too weak. It did hurt so much and took me a few years to recover and actually start my life. I was down and out and the worse thing about bullying is that no one is there to support you and pick you up. It seems your bullying was at an extreme end. What happened ?
From the way you write you certainly seem you clever and intelligent as well as very coherent in your views. You are not inferior just lacking confidence from your ordeal.
You do have a lot to offer. I have never heard of avoidant personality order. Somehow you need to start picking up the pieces - it will take time but you need to make a start. It took me four years and it was a very gradual process, disappointing I missed the best time of my life but life hasnt been too bad since. I realise you cannot have everything in life. Actually I also believe we all go through one very bad patch in our lifes - me and you have had ours. Lets embrace and enjoy life. All the best
not sure what to really do anymore, my school is extremely supportive saying its my last chance, (i haven't been in sixth form for nearly 2 weeks because i'm a danger to myself) but isn't that my problem. I have never been in trouble in school in my life, I don't understand. I know i did something stupid but it was an accident
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I'm now in some complete mess with the school and my parents and can't see a way out of this.
not sure what to really do anymore, my school is extremely supportive saying its my last chance, (i haven't been in sixth form for nearly 2 weeks because i'm a danger to myself) but isn't that my problem. I have never been in trouble in school in my life, I don't understand. I know i did something stupid but it was an accident
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I'm now in some complete mess with the school and my parents and can't see a way out of this.
Hope everything improves for you soon . Sorry I don't have any advice really crap at that