I know its all about how you feel on the inside bla bla bla, but I hate how I'm treated just because of my looks. Out of the six secondary schools I've been to 4 of them I've been bullied at, in one of them I was entirely ignored by my entire year. The last school I went to was a private school where everyone could afford to be beautiful and I stick out like a sore thumb being chubby, having spotty skin, dull hair, and terrible teeth, I had hardly any friends. It also doesn't help that my own mother is gorgeous and did modelling when she was my age. My younger siblings all seem to take over her as well. I'm like the ugly duckling and it makes me feel terrible. I used to be cute as a child and I actually think most of it is my own fault, my teeth were never properly looked after, I ate crap, I never wore a brace, I never did anything to look after my teeth etc etc. And I can't afford to have anything done about it. My parents are in a lot of debt, and most of my clothes and such that I have are over a few years old. I certainly can't afford facials. And I try to diet, and Im persevering with that, but i often eat out of comfort too!
When I was skinnier a year or two a go I was still ugly because of my teeth, and dark bushy eyebrows and large nose anyways. I have especially bad teeth because I was in a car accident and three were broken and now I've had them replaced and I bruising on my gums and obvious teeth that are a different colour to the rest. It makes me so depressed because I know it has been the major factor in why I've never had many friends. Ive tried makeup but I just look even worse, it makes my skin look worse and lipstick highlights how bad my teeth are. My favourite escapism in the world is acting, but I know I'd never be able to have a proper career in that because of my looks either.
Sorry, I know theres nothing anyone on TSR can do, but the people I'm surrounded by don't understand why I'm so upset by it, mainly because they don't entirely know what it feels like. I guess I just wanted to get it off my chest...