So I'm back again. These past could of weeks have gotten worse. I was walking around campus and I admit, I was looking horrible and sweaty. Anyway, I noticed a group of people had turned my way as if to say 'look at that freak'. This almost ruined my entire day. I mean, I know I am not the best looking person, but nobody deserves to feel this way. I have tried so hard to lose weight but I'm just too busy right now. I am chubby and I don't think it suits me. I aim to improve my looks by losing weight and dressing nicer so that in my second year things go a lot better.
Things didn't used to be this way. At 5'11 I am a size 16, which isn't very attractive to be tall and kind of fat at the same time. When I was a size10 around four years ago, I used to have people saying how beautiful I was. These were random men saying positive things about me. I never had anyone stare at me like I'm a freak. I could walk down the street with my head up high without worrying if someone was laughing at me. Then I gradually began to pile on the pounds, it went straight to my face and before I knew it, I ballooned and I'm now like this. N the very rare occasions I get the odd guy trying to chat me up, but I also get people laughing at me like I'm a double chinned monster. I never imagined things would be like this.
I promise that during the summer holiday I will go back to a size ten and look attractive again, because I will end my life If I continue to stay looking like an overweight freakshow.