Hey, anon please.
Well yesterday afternoon my girlfriend broke up with me. It was a pretty savage breakup, and I didn't take it so well, and decided to immediately go to bed (5pm or so) so I could be unconscious or whatever, I don't know. Basically I wanted to pass out, I was feeling really bad.
Now before I continue, right now I live in a hostel, 'cause it's cheap, and an awesome location. However I do have to share a bedroom with two other guys, who are both about 10 years older than me, and I always get the feeling that they don't like me. I mean they're usually polite to me, with the addition of a few sarcastic or backhanded remarks, and I'm polite back.
Anyway I wake up at about 1pm, and decide against going to uni that day, and was basically browsing the internet when one of my roommates comes in.
He starts having a huge go at me for no reason, telling me that going to sleep at 5pm is selfish, how him and (the third roommate) actually have to
work for a living, and though he didn't care if I slept at antisocial hours, he cared if it impacted on everyone elses ability to study, and he was considering 'reporting me to management'.
He wasn't being particularly reasonable or even
polite, but usually I'd have just been accepting, I'd have apologised, and told him I'd work on it. God knows I learned that from the amount fo time living with my mother. This time, however, he chose the worst moment possible, and I absolutely exploded. I made every logical and illogical argument possible, and basically told him exactly what I thought of him telling me off like a child.
This led to him saying that if I was going to act like a child, that's exactly what he'd do, and that he's not the only one who doesn't respect me, and thinks I act like one. In fact I'm one of the least liked people in the entire building.
So I leave the room before I end up punching him in the face, and phone up some friends, so I can meet up, drink, and forget everything. Apparently they've all gone somewhere without me, and assumed that they'd invited me and I just didn't want to come. So I phone up my parents, just to talk to someone, but they're on holiday with no network coverage.
So against my better judgement I phone up my ex, who mistakes my just wanting someone to talk to for me stalking her, and tells me I'm being creepy and to leave her alone before she gets her friends to *make me* leave her alone.
I figure by this point that I'd reacted too strongly to my roommate, and even though he's the biggest asshole alive, there's no point in having needless tension and besides, he didn't know about my girlfriend. So I go back to the room and apologize for my reaction. He continues having a go at me for how childishly I acted in response to a civil request, and starts another round of insults before I tell him that if it's really in his best interests to create potentially unrepairable bad feeling then go for it, but otherwise I've apologised and would rather we just forget everything.
So I grabbed my keys, and went for a walk. When I went to get some tea from starbucks, the guy behind the counter started teasing me for taking too long to decide, which made me far more angry than it would usually have. Then when I got it, he said 'there. that wasn't so hard was it'. So I threw it at his face. I can't even remember deciding to do it; first time in my life I've ever lashed out in anger at someone I didn't even know. He started yelling, and I ran for it before anyone could figure out what had just happened. Figured it was best at that point to run home, and never go near there again.
Got back in, and the guy at reception called me over. My roommate had actually reported me! I swear to god... He told me to fix my sleep problem, or find somewhere else to live.
So here I am on TSR
. This has been the worst day I've had for quite a long while, and I've only been awake for three and a half hours. So I figure if I stay indoors, I can't be permanently disfigured or beaten up or anything, so here I am eating cheesecake, watching terrible tv and surfing the internet.
I actually feel like crying.