Mental Health Support Society MKVII

how do you find meaning/reasons for living life? I really struggle with this sometimes, like I really don't know why I exist, let alone what I am supposed to be doing and ****.

Yeah I feel the same a lot. I think if you feel depressed you stop caring about things, which in turn means you don't really have any goals in life anymore, and that can make life feel really pointless.

I don't feel like this now, but in the past I've definitely had some of those same thoughts. I just got so used to being depressed and unable to do anything requiring the slightest effort that I got scared of the possibility of the possibility that there might be a time when I'd be able or expected to do them again. But yeah, like you've realised you only think this way while you're depressed. Once you stop being depressed it's so much easier just to get on with daily tasks, and you won't mind people expecting things of you (if anything, it can give you pride in showing you that you're at least partially recovered). And in my experience at least, the relief from truly feeling better eclipses any worries about stuff like exams - just keep on trying to get better, and if it comes then welcome it.

No I got scared and thought I'll look pretty stupid if it turns out I'm not. Probably should have done anyway.

Your mood isn't the only symptom that stops you, feeling lethargic and a general uninterest in anything can make it hard to be productive too. Have you told anyone about how it makes you feel at your appointments?

Thanks, my precious Ronnie is looking in pretty good form!

Next time you're there it would probably be a good idea to ask of you could, see what he says.

Thanks. I feel so odd. Like I want to jump around but there's somebody sat on my chest so I can't.

Woooo!

how do you find meaning/reasons for living life? I really struggle with this sometimes, like I really don't know why I exist, let alone what I am supposed to be doing and ****.

things make so little sense as well, this world just seems so wrong to me in so many ways, yet there are glimpses of good out there, but why do the good worship the bad? I don't know, none of what im saying here probably makes any sense even, my mind is just a mess of thoughts and I don't even know how to begin to express them

Completely get what you were saying here and in the conversation below ... I have such issues with trying to see the point in life sometimes. But if you mention that to people they immediately think you are going to do something, but its more that I don't see the point in life generally. Which does make it really difficult to try and pull myself out of these feelings are trying and enjoy myself and be happy, because in my head at the end of the day it doesn't matter! And the whole way the world works just doesn't make sense to me at all but IDK! Sorry I know that doesn't make much sense but, pretty sure it was along the same lines as what you were saying!

yeah, I definitely get that, I try to talk to my mum about it and she just gets all funny cause she thinks im being suicidal or something (which I guess in a way I am but makes it impossible to talk this stuff out), that's what I mean really like nothing seems to matter and nothing makes sense so what is the point in things? idk, is like the way peoples lives work in the way the world is, there's no value or anything to be found in that anyway so why even bother looking for it? if this makes any sense at all

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I have just edited your original post with sweaty palms on a touch screenn phone, almost certain that I deserve a prize for that.

There's a lot of interesting thinking there. Somethings making you angry, that's for sure, probably best to work out what that is. Also, defining yourself as not good enough isn't going to help, ever.

Hey, sorry to butt in on your conversation here ... just wanted to say that I completely understand how you feel! Been with my bf for 4 and a half years and having exactly the same issues as you at the moment, where my self-esteem has hit rock bottom and all my anxiety and depression seems to get taken out on him, and I completely understand the constantly feeling not good enough and stuff! I know how **** it feels, sorry I know that wasn't helpful, just wanted to say I know exactly how you feel! Hope it gets better for you soon though because I know how difficult it can be

Greetings.

Of course it's ok for you to post on here. And I'm glad that some things are improving for you, like work and stuff. I'm not an expert (far from it ) on socialising, but have you tried seeing if you can hang out with your housemates'/boyfriend's friends as well? Or check out the TSR forum for your uni - I managed to meet a really nice girl at my uni this year, on the same course and everything.

Also, if you feel you're taking things out on your boyfriend too much, next time you feel angry or insecure you could try coming online and venting on this thread - none of us will mind, and it might help you sort your emotions out before speaking to your boyfriend again.

I've no idea what you're talking about, but it sounds like something to look forward to...

Nah it completely makes sense, I am finishing university this week and my parents and stuff are trying to get me to work out what I want in life. And I just can't see the point in all of it at all, which is just making things really difficult! But yer totally get the everyone thinking you are being suicidal, given up talking about it now because a lot of people just really don't understand at all! I just wish I could understand the world and see a point to it like everyone else but I just don't understand how other people see a point to it all! Sorry not making much sense at all I know but I am stuck in the same train of thought that you are! Makes it so difficult to try and get out of all of this!

My dog dying has just set in. It sucks.

At least I didn't need to get up insanely early to ready Jack. Oh and I cancelled on meeting someone today.

Go no life me!

so sorry to hear that, hope you are okay!

I know what is like to have trouble getting out and stuff, I cancel on doing things all the time, can just seem too much when you feel down anyway, you're not alone though, im sure many people here feel like they have no life, I know I do! wish I knew something comforting to say :/

I don't know any long-term solutions, but TV (south park especially) can help, also playing random internet games (kongregate has a good selection), talking to certain people, either in real life or on skype, reading if I can manage it (Terry Pratchett is nicely easy and entertaining), and generally just doing things which require little effort but take up some concentration.