Hi everyone! I would like to ask for your opinion. I started doing a Master's degree in a biology/social sciences related subject at UCL in September 2010. However, in the process I got so burnt out and disheartened that I spent the summer of 2011, when I was supposed to be working on my dissertation, just panicking, endlessly procrastinating and trying to decide what to do. (I also had lots of problems with my accommodation at the time, had an abusive landlady... It's now all the past, thank God.)
In September, after not having submitted my dissertation, I got a job as a ledger clerk with a small local company. I only work 16 hours a week, the whole idea was to have enough time to finish my master's, but I just couldn't bring myself to it, so I started teaching, improving my language skills, doing an introductory accountancy course and signing up for a maths degree with the OU, and other fun things.
However, I recently decided that I want to finish my master's degree. I just cannot bear looking in the mirror anymore. I feel like a dropout, a cheater, a loser. Even if I will never work in an area related to my degree... I am only a dissertation away from a master's degree from one of the most prestigious universities of the world. (Also, I am from abroad so not too many people would know the university where I got my undergrad degree from.) Also, I am always struggling when I write a CV in terms of how to account for that year. But, most importantly, I realised that I would probably enjoy doing it in the end, and the reason why I've been putting it off for so long is simply that I've completely lost momentum.
So I got in touch with my tutor and discussed my options, renewed my library membership, set up a study space, dusted off my old textbooks and notes, created a study plan and got down to work when...
Just today afternoon I got a phone call from an accountancy firm to where I had sent my CV a couple of months ago, that they are inviting me for interview. It is a local, medium sized but relatively prestigious firm, and apparently lots of people want to work for them.
What do I do now? What if I get this job? My master's dissertation is worth 60 credits which means, in theory, that I am supposed to work 600 hours on it. I have calculated that I will have to spend 15 hours a week from now until the submission deadline working on it. Also, take into consideration that in the past year I have not been doing anything related to my course so obviously I am quite rusty. Working full time while doing my dissertation would probably be undoable, right?
So I will have to go for one or the other. Which one do you think I should pick? Or do you think the two are doable together? I feel that I have messed up my life enough in the past two years, I do not want to mess it up even further!