Dear you,
I wish things were different, I wish we had the same plans, the same hopes for our futures. I wish you could have tried to make it work, i'm not sure if it's because you couldn't be bothered anymore, or that you think I deserve someone better than you. But I don't. I've never met someone as kind, funny, caring, amazing and loving as you. I'm so glad I waited for you and shared my first everything with you.
I have had the best 2 years of my life and you have made me so happy, happier then I could have ever of imagined. I'll remember all the things we did together, even if it was just walks in the park, or laying next to each other for hours on end talking about anything and everything. I don't think i've ever laughed so much with someone, but I don't think someone has made me cry as much too.
I'm sorry for being me, overly emotional, I can't count the amount of times I used to come crying to you about things, and you'd always comfort me and make me feel better. But now i'm crying and you can't, and probably won't ever comfort me again in the way you used to.
It makes me sad knowing that you'll never hold me in your arms, kiss me or sleep next to me again. Since we broke up i've been holding onto the hope that somehow we'll get back together again, that you'll change your mind and we'll be together forever like I naively always thought. But I know realistically it won't happen. I need to stop clinging onto a false hope, otherwise i'll never move on. Right now I can't see myself with anyone else, but I know we both need to move on.
I'm so glad that we're still friends and we can keep in touch. I know that this will make it much harder for me to move on, but your friendship is the most important thing to me. We were best friends before and in our relationship, and we both want to keep that, and I thank you for valuing our friendship. But for now, i'm not sure we can be good friends until i'm over you. I know I won't ever won't be completely over you, I know I will always hold special feelings for you and if we see each other again, it will bring back old memories. But this is something I want to risk to keep you in my life.
I guess this post is my way of saying to myself that I need to realise this part of my life is over and I need to start moving on with my life, looking at all the good things I have. I understand you realised a while ago.
Thank you for always being there for me, for understanding me like no one else, improving my self esteem so much, giving me compliments each day, cute kisses, amazing hugs, intimate moments, silly nicknames, hours of laughter and some of the best memories i've ever had <3
I love you so much and I wish you so much happiness, you mean everything to me and you'll always hold a place in my heart.
Love Me xxx