Depression Society MKVI

All CS people (or people who know C), could anyone help me with a C related problem (silly hash tables...) ? A pint at the next meet should be enough incentive

I'm sure it's not as big a deal as it seems.

Just curious, does anyone here know what other medication I'm likely to be put on if the doctor decides citalopram isn't working? The tiredness isn't really getting any better, which really screws with work, and even though it seemed to help initially I think that might've just been a placebo because recently I've felt exactly like I did before I went on it.

Hey everyone, great to see a new thread. I'm wondering if anyone could give me some advice; I'm in a bit of a dilemma.
A friend of mine was chatting to me in school today, and mentioned that she had been talking to her mother about me lacking motivation and getting poor grades. She told me her mother thought I might have depression and that I should go see a doctor - at this point I almost fell off my chair and proceeded to laugh it off, saying that there was nothing wrong and I was just a little lazy.

I feel really guilty lying to her now, and I want to make it right, so I was planning to go to school tommorow and tell her that I was worried I might have some form of mental illness and that I'm worried about my health. The only thing keeping me back is that I don't want to place this burden on her. She's not a health professional, and I know I'd be better off going to my GP to get a proper diagnosis, but after she told me about her mothers advice, I feel like she's the only one I can talk to without being judged. But at the same time I don't want to cause her any distress or make her concerned about me; I'm sure she has enough on her mind without having to carry my baggage as well.
I'm also not sure to what extent I should tell her about my problems. Telling her about my suicidal thoughts and self-harm would be a bit much I'm guessing, but at the same time I kinda want to open up to her because I haven't talked about this to anyone and it'd feel like an emotional release.

Anyhow, I'm just wondering if you guys think I should tell her my worries? I've read on another forum how friends have reacted when they find out someone is depressed, and it sounds like there are a lot of judgemental people out there which is making me a little apprehensive. Does anyone have any good experiences about telling their friends about their problems? Or would it be better for her if I let her think everything is fine?

I should have probably mentioned he was a workman, not just a random man It's dark now and I think he's gone.

If he didn't reply to you because of that than I don't think he's really worth worrying about. Why would somebody ignore somebody because of that? You could comment on the post in you liked, at least he will then have to acknowledge you. I have no idea how your medication, or any medication, works really so I'm not in much of a position to say. I do hope you feel better soon though

Hope bits of that were somewhat useful, I'm the worlds worst person at giving advice.

Yes it does, it's one of the key modules. I've had long enough to do it, no excuses.

The appointment's Tuesday. In the morning I can generally get up when I have somewhere to be though.

I think my biggest worry is that there actually isn't anything wrong with me and this is me. I'm not as bad as other people either, I've never wanted to end it all.

Just a little misunderstanding/me being a douche. I never miss my BF more than when we have a little tiff though

Hey everyone, great to see a new thread. I'm wondering if anyone could give me some advice; I'm in a bit of a dilemma.
A friend of mine was chatting to me in school today, and mentioned that she had been talking to her mother about me lacking motivation and getting poor grades. She told me her mother thought I might have depression and that I should go see a doctor - at this point I almost fell off my chair and proceeded to laugh it off, saying that there was nothing wrong and I was just a little lazy.

I feel really guilty lying to her now, and I want to make it right, so I was planning to go to school tommorow and tell her that I was worried I might have some form of mental illness and that I'm worried about my health. The only thing keeping me back is that I don't want to place this burden on her. She's not a health professional, and I know I'd be better off going to my GP to get a proper diagnosis, but after she told me about her mothers advice, I feel like she's the only one I can talk to without being judged. But at the same time I don't want to cause her any distress or make her concerned about me; I'm sure she has enough on her mind without having to carry my baggage as well.
I'm also not sure to what extent I should tell her about my problems. Telling her about my suicidal thoughts and self-harm would be a bit much I'm guessing, but at the same time I kinda want to open up to her because I haven't talked about this to anyone and it'd feel like an emotional release.

Anyhow, I'm just wondering if you guys think I should tell her my worries? I've read on another forum how friends have reacted when they find out someone is depressed, and it sounds like there are a lot of judgemental people out there which is making me a little apprehensive. Does anyone have any good experiences about telling their friends about their problems? Or would it be better for her if I let her think everything is fine?

That's good.

Yeah, I guess it's probably not the reason. Might make me look a bit crazy, though not that sure that I mind looking crazy anymore. I'm too much of a chicken to comment. Thanks, just scared I'm slipping back to how I was before. Maybe the mental health person tomorrow will have a magic solution, oh I'm scared.
Yeah it was, just having some reassurance can really help, especially when I start torturing myself. No you're not, you're brilliant.

Well if you haven't felt up to it, maybe you could let someone know?
Good luck with the appointment!
As said don't compare yourself to others, not being suicidal doesn't mean your problems aren't serious.

Still fighting the feeling that it's all me though. I haven't been sat crying all the time so I couldn't do the work, and I know I can do it, I've managed before. I've just been such a lazy arse that I haven't.

And thanks, I wasn't nervous about it until making the appointment

To me it feels like the equivalent of saying I think I might have the flu but I'm not sneezing, if you get me.

Depression can make you act lazy, without its being your fault. For me depression usually brings on a major lack in motivation for studying and most other things, and also makes it really hard for me to get out of bed any time before 2pm. But I eventually realised it's not my fault, and depression does make these things harder for you.

And you shouldn't feel like your problems don't matter just because they're not so severe as other peoples'. I know my self-harming isn't nearly so damaging or dangerous as some peoples' on here, but it's still something that negatively affects me, meaning I have a right to be upset about it, and so do you.

I'm cold and fed up of being cold. The worst bit of it is that I have a winter coat, it just happens to be in London and the guy it's with still hasn't got round to sending it back to me. I realise there are more important things in his life than a coat, but it'd take no more than half an hour to sort out, and I'm paying for the postage, so ... it shouldn't have taken 3 months.

I'm ****ing fed up of this- I've been wearing an old, thin, non-waterproof jacket all winter and it's ****- it doesn't keep me warm unless I wear 2 or 3 jumpers under it, and it leaks and lets the rain it. Especially on the torn sleeve.

I know it's such a little thing, and I know this post is horribly passive agressive, but it doesn't take 3 months to send somebody a ****ing coat.

Gotta love Edinburgh weather.

Have you tried going round the charity shops looking for a replacement one? There are tons in Stockbridge or up the bridges, you might be able to pick one up fairly cheaply. Or there's always Primark.

Oh yes

No. I should do, but it's just.. I've got a perfectly good, bought this October very almost new coat which I really like. I accidentally left it with someone I went to stay with. He said that he'd send it on, then we both forgot, I asked again, he said he'd bring it back at Christmas, it didn't come back at Christmas because he had too much stuff to carry, he said he'd send it.... nothing is here and he's ignoring me. If he'd stolen £40 off me, it'd be wrong, but apparently there's no problem in not sending back my coat and ignoring me I mean, I'm paying him back for the postage and box/whatever, it's not actually going to cost him anything, just half an hour or so. I can fully understand not getting it done straight away, but it's been 3 months, and that's just... it's not good.

Ooops, that was a bit of a rant. I'm off to the west coast of Scotland in a week and a half though- it'll be cold and rainy, and seeing as that's the only warm, waterproof thing I have, I kind of need it

Also, I never got a secret santa present. I got an email before Christmas saying that it wasn't going to be sent before then, but it's a month after Christmas and I've had nothing.

Perhaps I just live in the postal Bermuda Triangle or something

**** me diazepam has a long half life!