Depression Society MKVI

im having a bad one tonight have to say, feeling really down and insecure. And for no reason, i have no reason too and yet i am feeling so low.

http://www.sporcle.com/

Although if I currently tried to name all the American states I think I might cry at my own hopeless lack of focus and memory.

I dunno. I was quite optimistic earlier but now all I can think is I have no friends, no life, no prospects, no strength. I am completely stupid and worthless. I hate myself, I hate how I look, I hate being made to feel bad for being like this. And I hate how everyone else seems to be happy and I'm just not. I'm really close to giving up on uni now. It's been the worst thing that's ever happened to me.

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On a slightly different note, I just found someone on Reddit who goes to my university. And now I'm freaking the **** out because I've posted lots of personal stuff on Reddit, including a bit about SH. OH MY GOD A COMPLETE STRANGER THAT I MAY END UP RUNNING INTO AT SOME POINT HAS ACCESS TO A WHOLE LOT OF INFORMATION ABOUT ME. ASDFGHJKL.

Ergh, why is awkward stuff always at the top of the page?!

I have a 9am lecture tomorrow. No way am I going to get the amount of sleep I need (at least 8 hours), I meant to go to bed ages ago but I got distracted, and now I'm wide awake

I feel like absolute crap. I don't want the rest of my exam results this week, because I know they're just going to make things worse.

Can't stop crying.

Same, I'm also wide awake (I think) . I've currently got Half Term . None of that in university .

Which university do you study at, if you don't mind me asking? And I think I'll let you get some sleep .

Lucky sod Don't even have a break until Easter now, sigh! But I have the day off on Tuesday, I can catch up on sleep a bit then
Worcester, haha. Not well known or prestigious, but I love it!

Yeah I've had loud music blasting all day, definitely helps. Also had my girlfriend on webcam, talking to people in person helps as well. Thanks for the offer to PM might take you up on it sometime You can pm me too if you ever feel the need.



Thanks, I will bear in mind that I can text you - I really appreciate the offer. And yep hopefully the GP appointment will go well, I'm getting desperate for them to do something...anything really.

I'm terrified of calling the emergency services, I don't want to own up that anything's wrong and I really really don't want to be sectioned, then there's the whole idea that actually I just need to pull myself together and get on with stuff.



I appreciate your advice, but take your time, if you're not up to replying to people don't worry about it just do things at your own pace and hopefully you'll feel better without the stress.

What game? I've had someone from school bugging me to play him at tf2 for the past few days....can I find the motivation? hell no.

Can't stop crying.

Lucky sod Don't even have a break until Easter now, sigh! But I have the day off on Tuesday, I can catch up on sleep a bit then
Worcester, haha. Not well known or prestigious, but I love it!

Well if you want any advice on what not to do if you take time off, I'm your man (I completely ****ed things/myself up ).

ooh, one of my cousins goes there, and another one used to.

. Must be tough though
Don't worry about it not being well known. At least you love being there, and therefore made an excellent choice when you applied . I'm currently live in West London , and in Sixth Form.

Ergh, why is awkward stuff always at the top of the page?!

What a knob he was

I'm definitely not anonymous on Reddit, I've posted pictures of my face, details about my flat/flatmates (mostly rants about how they're pissing me off ), stuff like that. Not my name, but hey. If you wanted to look on the bright side, it could be that we'll make friends. Maybe.

http://www.sporcle.com/

Although if I currently tried to name all the American states I think I might cry at my own hopeless lack of focus and memory.

- That really doesn't sound good, as ViceVersa has said - get yourself to a GP sharpish.

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I feel like absolute crap. I don't want the rest of my exam results this week, because I know they're just going to make things worse.

Same here

Parents gone and budgie gone .

Nah, it was an ok day. Didn't talk about the hospital or SH or anything all day, and I think I satisfied them that I am now 'ok', even though my mood will most likely collapse by tomorrow.

Gonna relax for a bit before I phone the crisis team, then hopefully get to sleep at a normal time with the help of the lorazepam again.

Hey, I hope the bowling helps a little bit, or at least distracts you .

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Sorry I wasn't online last night when everyone had problems (but at least that means the lorazepam plan worked for me, I guess.)

Parents should be arriving soon, then we just have to work out what to do with the day. My vote? Spend some of that money of theirs .