meh, dinner thing was okay I spose, though I think people were a bit annoyed at me for being kinda quiet to begin with, though I had a few drinks so chatted a bit to people a bit before we left.
still feel pretty crap in general though, just feel totally devoid of hope right now, can't see the point of anything, and stupidest little things are either getting me really wound up or really upset last week or so as well.