[Anonymous]

I was diagnosed with depression a few years ago, I always thought there was something more than just depression but my psychiatrist didn't think so. A few of these episodes have happened before in the last 4/5 years. I'm 18.


Basically it happened about a week ago. It seemed to happen after I watched a few films, almost like they triggered it because immediately after I began to feel strange. The first thing I noticed was like anxiety, I felt sweaty and nauseas although excited. Every night since then I have been waking up very early in the morning and not being able to get back to sleep.


For the first 2 days I felt extremely angry and irritable. I've got all these ideas in my head that I never had before, I want to go travelling and I can't stop thinking about it, and I also decided I want to become an actor, I never thought about this before this week, I also decided I'm going to learn to play the piano and speak another language. That is fine, but I CAN'T stop thinking about these things. I have exams and I can't study because I'm always thinking about something else. I also ordered some clothes that are way off my usual style. Really bright and eccentric, it's not my usual thing but I have this excitement inside me and I could almost burst. I just want to go and do something BIG and I don't care about the consequences. My self confidence has increased so much. I think there is something special about me, **** that sounds so stupid to write down but I just know it. I'm different and something huge is going to happen, I want so much more now, much more than life has to offer. I just have this deep convincing feeling that I'm on the verge of something huge. This has all happened in the last week, and things like this have happened before.


I can tell everyone is getting annoyed with me talking about my plans, but I just can't stop. Everything has changed, I felt awful and now I feel amazing. I feel like I'm actually going to do something and I'm excited. I don't know if I ever want to go back.


What does it sound like? It's only been happening for a week, it feels awesome now but what if this feeling keeps getting more intense? Does it sound like I could be manic?

[laut_biru]

No one here can formally diagnose you. Your best bet is to try and see a doctor whilst this is on-going so they can get the clearest idea of what is occuring.

[Mchouse]

of course no one here can diagnose you but all that does sound like hypomania ,i've been through plenty of those as well as full blown manias. are you still on antidepressants ??!?!?! you should probably consult your psychiatrist asap before your hypomania goes any further. it is good though that you are aware of the changes in your behaviour and emotions. best of luck

[Id and Ego seek]

There would be no point diagnosing you anyway.

[The_Last_Melon]

Medicine kills you bro. Don't take it unless you're dying.

[CheekiiMonkii]

Talk about it with someone that you trust... a really good friend or maybe your old psychiatrist..