(Original post by darkshines84)
I'm in my third year of uni and working on a year in Industry. I've only got about 7 weeks to go but felt the need to unload before I actually go insane because I absolutely cannot stand it any more, and I'm hoping there's someone out there who understands!
First off the work itself is incredibly dull software engineering. For the first few months of the job I convinced myself it was interesting and just a means to an end, a way of getting something good down on my CV. But there's no hiding from the fact the work doesn't interest or excite me in the slightest. Spending day after day after day working on something that bores the crap out of you really does take it's toll on your confidence, self-esteem and general happiness, and it saps all the energy out of me.
Another big problem us that I have very little contact with other people as part of the work, which is so frustrating as I thrive on conversation and am an out and out people-person. I don't mean to sound harsh when I say this but the people in my office are the most self-serving office zombies I've ever met, they literally do nothing else except go to work and go home again. Some days I will literally have no conversation whatsoever with anyone in an entire morning or afternoon which makes me feel like I'm going mad.
I also spend the entire day, every day sat in front of a the same computer doing the same thing. I would kill for the occasional phone call, meeting, trip or anything at all that lets me talk to people.
This is might sound a bit over the top but I came into this job as a chatty, vibrant, enthusiastic 20 year old who was keen to learn, and I feel like week after week the work has slowly chipped away at my confidence and well-being and made me into this bitter, frustrated, unhealthy person. It's even noticeable to my housemates, some days I'll get home from work so unhappy and depressed and rant about it for ages.
I do so much stuff outside of work to try and numb the tedium; running, volunteer work, playing piano and drums, all of which I love, and I've got loads of really great friends and family, but I still get this horrible feeling every morning when I wake up for another 8 hours of pointless bulls***.
I cannot wait to finish and go travelling this summer, and cannot wait to work for a charity when I graduate instead of another soulless engineering firm full of mind-numbingly boring people.
Sorry for the length of this, just had to get it all out before I exploded.