Dark side of 'playing' girls

Looking back this was definitely what started it off, and what kept me from pursuing girls who could 'have an affect' on me. Been introspective lately and can trace it back to abandonment issues, guess will just have to get used to not being so uncompromisingly independent.

I have you OP.

http://joy2meu.com/Fear_of_Intimacy.html

Enjoy.

She lied to me from the start pretty much. I knew she had a history but she spent most of my relationship in another room sexting/text ****ing some guy. Used her nights outs for guys and just basically being a whore.

lol OP please stop describing the kind of person you WISH you were. Loser

Have you skipped the last four pages as a whole? This is not trolling this is serious discussion, if you have zero to contribute why bother posting at all it doesn't make you important. No one cares for your throwaway opinion.

Are you of asian background? / have many of these girls been asian? (Just curious, as you mentioned marriage etc)

During my late teens I went around doing the same thing and I undoubtedly shifted things onto the female, they were the catalyst and I just happened to be in the right place at the right time, if it wasn't me it would be 'the next guy' who showed interest, atleast in my mind.

I came out of that mentality, almost scarred by my own actions. It took me a while to get over it, I'm happily settled down now but it took a considerable time of being friends first to make it, it was as if I had to convince myself first.