Me and the gf broke up about 1 month and 3 weeks ago now. Its fair to say it didn't end well between us, i was distraught and thought we'd work if she just gave it a chance. She didnt believe it would, didn't want to and just quickly moved on, kissing guys within 1week of breaking up (we was together for 3 years), signing up to dating sites, going out with random guys and generally just living the dream.
I did stupid **** (first day we broke up i went on her fb/email and found stuff) which i was honest with her about that led to us rowing even more once broken up and the rows went pretty far with us both saying really nasty things and eventually ended up with her calling the police (though im unsure if they were real)
Ive spent the last 4 weeks NC obviously because of the police and the fact it couldnt continue how it was going. I just cant help but feel so ****ty all the time. Ive had a few weeks where i've felt okay and felt i could move on, but I just can't.
She was literally amazing, i know we had something just wish I could get it back. She was at her friends house yday opposite mine and she still looks as beautiful as ever I just want to see if there is anything there for her. But as everyone said there clearly isnt. Just feel so sad, so trapped.