Good bit of news: I have a new care coordinator and so far, he is pretty good! You can get hold of him easily, he sorts things out quickly, he's efficient, he doesn't ask annoying questions and he has said when I move back to Bristol he will come and see me within a week, in my flat, so I don't even have to go to the CMHT! Awesome!
Bad news: I feel really really crap. Really edgy and anxious. Don't know how to cope with everything in my head, I just want it to stop
I think the shadows have left me alone and then they just come right back and piss me off.
I'm (finally) seeing the consultant tomorrow (11 days into my section and I finally see a consultant, I think that's ****ed up...). Literally nothing has changed yet, they haven't even been assessing me properly. My parents are pissed off that I'm not showing any signs of improvement, and there's still no plan. I know at this rate, if they let me go at the end of the 28 days then I WILL end up doing something that, if for whatever reason, fails, I will end up back in hospital. My parents know this without me having to tell them. So they want to move me to the Priory (£4.8k a week :/) which I won't complain about as I've seen the brochure and its like a bloody 5 star hotel. But I don't see the point because I don't know if I even need help, I don't know. I just want to go home.
But in some other good news. Me and my girlfriend have now been going out for a month, which isn't long at all, but I think we are both just really happy with it. A lot of people told us that it wouldn't work but it's going so well (even though I've spent most of it in hospital), but we are just so close. And she's coming to visit me on Saturday, which I'm so excited about!!!
Sorry I haven't been replying to a lot of people, but sending hugs your way. Hope everyone is doing ok!
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