[Anonymous]

This guy toyed with my feelings. I would describe myself as an above average girl, I always have guys chasing after me, but I know exactly what I want so I always reject them. Even my friends think that I'm weird, I'm 25 years old and have not had a boyfriend in my life.
Finally I met someone whom I thought to myself: finally, I've found the one. But I didn't make any move because I was afraid that he'd reject me. After a few months of befriending him, he started showing interest in me. He'd call me, text me, and even ask me out for a date. And during the date, he'd hug me, caress me, touch me, etc so I was sure that he liked me.
But it lasted for a month and he said he doesn't like me. I was so heartbroken.

For 2 weeks, I couldn't fall asleep, I'd sleep for like 1-2 hours and then wake up in the middle of the night. So I had no choice but to rely on sleeping pills. At first, it worked well, I slept for about 6 hours a day. After a week, it didn't work anymore. I would wake up after 2 hours and had a hard time falling asleep again.

My family doesn't know that I was dating the guy. So it was really hard for me to pretend to be ok. At night, I would get a mental breakdown and cry for hours. I only eat in front of my family, sometimes I'd lie and say I have dinner plans and go out alone and hang around places I'd been to with him to avoid eating.

I feel so out of breath like my heart is going to burst anytime. I know I should move on, but it's so hard. How do I deal with this? I just want a good 8-hour sleep now

[Idle]

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