What's wrong with me? Please help me, I can't take it anymore

Why did you start feeling like this? What happened? Have you spoken to someone in real life about how you feel? You know a professional?

You sound like you could be suffering from depression or starting to at least. If I were you I'd maybe book an appointment at your doctors, you don't think they will help but they can offer some great advice before you spiral even further.

OP i feel for you having felt like that in the past, it helps to talk to someone. you can pm me in confidence if you like

you might think this is irrelevant but what religion are you

Since last year something has happened to me. I'm not enthusiastic about anymore, I feel so numb and am always just sat around really quiet. I used to do things and enjoy life and the coming of friends and family. Now I just can't, there's no excitement left.

I go sleep either really upset or sad, or just staring at the roof with no emotion. I feel like a robot, like I'm dead inside and it's frustrating.

I'm always negative, I can see the positive in anything, I even got my degree and felt no joy, it's like I'm not human anymore, just always miserable.

It's affecting my relationships, I no longer speak to friends, and the quality time I spent with family is no longer the same. (As an Asian my family have always been important). But I feel myself drifting away.

I no longer engage with girls properly, I get interest and messages from them. But I don't reply back, or talk properly. Then I'm all alone again, it's a vicious cycle.

I normally hide behind making jokes in front of people and acting happy, but I'm so miserable and I wish I could become my old self. It's affecting body too, it's getting worse the longer this goes on.

I was agnostic for a long time, but trying to get back into Islam. I'm finding it very difficult though, I can't seem to find the faith

Since last year something has happened to me. I'm not enthusiastic about anymore, I feel so numb and am always just sat around really quiet. I used to do things and enjoy life and the coming of friends and family. Now I just can't, there's no excitement left.

I go sleep either really upset or sad, or just staring at the roof with no emotion. I feel like a robot, like I'm dead inside and it's frustrating.

I'm always negative, I can see the positive in anything, I even got my degree and felt no joy, it's like I'm not human anymore, just always miserable.

It's affecting my relationships, I no longer speak to friends, and the quality time I spent with family is no longer the same. (As an Asian my family have always been important). But I feel myself drifting away.

I no longer engage with girls properly, I get interest and messages from them. But I don't reply back, or talk properly. Then I'm all alone again, it's a vicious cycle.

I normally hide behind making jokes in front of people and acting happy, but I'm so miserable and I wish I could become my old self. It's affecting body too, it's getting worse the longer this goes on.

I was agnostic for a long time, but trying to get back into Islam. I'm finding it very difficult though, I can't seem to find the faith

You need to find purpose in life

Psychological counselling or get a life brooo! Asian parents seem to want to preserve the honour in their families & the reputation of the communities 😂😁

Please seek some help. Maybe ask for counselling, as your parents aren't exactly ehhh supportive, which is a huge shame.
What I would do is to start a gratitude book. Everyday write a few things that make you happy.
I was feeling depressed and unhappy like we all feel, but the book forces you to focus on the positives.

Don't worry life gets better, just make sure you're there to see it.

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i wasn't practising when i got depression and i was going through some stuff that i couldn't escape and get out of so i realised i needed to start praying and stuff. it was Ramadan so i started praying five times a day, reading quran (i always used to start crying when i used to read Quran) and i just used to hold my hands together and pray so much for things to get better and they did. literlly everything went away what i was feeling and i felt such peace in my heart, that feeling comes everytime i pray and read quran.

watch these

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JR9j0HIsOSs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2iPtaQz1ItA

I saw a gp, and was told I have depression, but I refused to take meds.

I've stopped expressing how I feel to family too, I could feel my mum getting annoyed at it and my dad just told me to "man the **** up" about my depression

When family have a dismissive and judgemental attitude it can make things so much worse. I know.

If you are in education I would urge you to seek counselling through your college or uni etc. They can be more accessible than nhs counselling.

Also it can be worrying having to take antidepressants but as a last resort they can take the edge off and improve your day to day functioning. They could be the difference between feeling very desperate or a fair bit less desperate. It's different for everyone but yeah.