I used to be excited but now I'm dreading it. I realised:
1) This country is really boring, except for London
2) London is expensive
3) I have to choose a subject to apply for but I'm not really passionate about any subject and I don't know what I want in life. I can't imagine having to study 1 subject for 3 years, I'd hate it.
I'll only be happy if I go to university in America, specifically in New York but it's unlikely as my parents won't let me take SATs plus tuition is like $60,000/£40,000+
I spend all my time researching universities and courses but it just makes me more panicked as I realise more and more that I don't know what I want. A year ago I thought I knew what I wanted to study, where I wanted to go, what I wanted to do afterwards etc. but now I'm so lost.