I have Asperger's Syndrome so after making some great friends at my old school, I always knew that socialising with new people in a completely new environment would be a challenge for me. In August after I was finally told my court, flat and room number for my 1st year, a group chat was formed where I got to know my flatmates for a bit there before meeting them.
So when we finally moved in, in September I thought it went as well as could be expected, although I never really felt like I clicked with any of them. I really made a point to try and socialise with them though. Some of them, to be precise one of the girls and the other guys, went upstairs and introduced themselves to the guys in the flat there. Those first few nights they always played loud drinking games like ring of fire, and I never enjoyed it or really got into it as much as the others but I stayed to make an effort, as tiresome as it was for me. They sometimes got a burger out in town and so I went with them for that, although I never went out with them on late nights, like clubbing and going into 3am, as I really don't enjoy them at all and I always had to be up early as well.
Although after a while I kind of stopped joining in with those drink games, I liked to try to hang out with them when I could. If we happened to be in the kitchen together I would sit with them or sometimes join in with board games.
The thing is though, is that only half of my flat have really been what I would call a "community", being the three I mentioned earlier. The other two girls have their own friends and generally isolate themselves from the rest of us. I myself have barely seen them. In fact, there's only ever been one occasion where all six of us have hung out together, and that was a meal we had at the uni pub one evening. I of course continued to try to fit in with the other three but I finally gave up when I overheard them talking about their house for next year, which the three of them were going to share with three from upstairs. By this time, it had all been sorted and signed for. It bugged me a little that they hadn't so much as even mentioned it to me.
To be honest I don't like to bother trying to socialise with them anymore because looking back I never felt I really clicked with them anyway and whatever happens now they're going into a house without me so I just don't see the point. The girl used to properly converse with me from time to time but that's stopped now. In fact now in mid-April, whenever any of them go in the kitchen when I'm there they literally just say "hello" and that's it, as if they don't know me. It's incredibly awkward for me to be around them and if I ever want to go in the kitchen for something and I hear them in there, I like to wait until they've gone before I go in.
I regularly FaceTime a very close friend from school who goes to another uni. Unlike mine, her entire flat are a really friendly community and just naturally all get on very well and have gotten quite close. I've not told her much about my flatmates because there's just nothing to tell, but we talk about hers a lot and so although I've only met them for a couple of minutes, and one not at all, I feel like I know her flatmates better than I know mine.
I've got my 2nd year accommodation sorted out which will have completely new flatmates and although I'm at a slight setback this time as they'll already know each other, I'll obviously try and start again with them and see how that goes.
It's not too much longer now until we all go home for Summer and so from then on I won't need to have anything to do with them again. But despite the other girls not really coming out much, is this all my fault, their fault or a bit of both? I just really don't know who's to blame for what has been a complete disaster for me.