This sounds really weird, and I guess it is.
But I've got no idea why I feel this way, and I want some answers. Like girls and guys, who it happens to have their whole lives ruined, but I just feel as if it wouldn't affect me.
When I was younger, I actually wanted to be raped, so I could get my virginity out of the way. I knew this wasn't normal, but I thought it would go away. Then I started reading non-consent stories, and I really enjoy them. I still feel really weird about it, but I can't help what I like :/ I like ones that are really twisted too, which actually scares me. Is this what they call a rape fantasy, or something else?
I understand why rape porn is looked down on and banned? But if the people are acting, I don't see the problem, nor do I see the sick side to the stories (which people comment on, clearly doing it as deep stories, not something someone should actually like or get turned on by.)
To me, it doesn't seem so horrific. Is everyone so nonchalant about it, until it happens to them? Or is this a weird way of thinking?
This isn't meant to offend people who this has happened to, as it seems like a horrific experience. I really, really don't mean any offence. I'm just voicing my thoughts, and I'm really curious as to what other people think. I haven't written or talked about this before (probably because everyone will be disgusted, but my curiousity has gotten the better of me.)
I just wrote this as a bit of a rant, and kind of want to know if anyone else is like this? (I'm not expecting anyone to be) As this is really rare, isn't it? And people are looked down on for liking stuff like this? Why? I actually really want to know what people think.