Me and my ex broke up 3 months ago. We had a relationship over a few months, I loved her, a lot. Ultimately, she was uncomfortable with being older than me. She turned 30 yesterday. I turned 25 the day before. I really enjoyed my time with her, I was very passionate about her but it always seemed like she was more into the physical side of things and she ran away as soon as there was going to be commitment. She just left one day and cut me out... it was just the manner in which she gave no warning at all and just left me one day.
I have not had contact with her in months. I saw her yesterday and she looked completely different, it is like she decided to completely change the way she looked because she turned 30. She wanted to talk, but I basically said I had other things to do. I know that she is settling down with another guy, she wants to commit with him. I have accepted that but I am just so hurt.
I just feel very scarred mentally. I can't get my head around that the old her from a few months back just does not exist anymore and that I don't even feel physically attracted to her anymore. I am in love with someone that doesn't even exist. It's ****ed up, its surreal.
It's been 3 months, I am still in depression every day. I don't feel in love with her anymore mentally or physically, in fact I feel nothing but anger. I just feel so broken down by it all. My libido is non existent anymore, I can't even concentrate on watching a film.