I've struggling a bit and feeling down because I'm working in a job that doesn't really fulfil my goals or stimulate my interests. It's boring, highly stressful, and above all adds no value.
I'm purely holding down the job to pay bills and get by. I know that this job will be a somewhat short to medium term job- until I find my feet.
Problem is, I've graduated in January and ever since I'm stuck in a rut. I've realised that I didn't invest my time as wisely as I should've done with regards careers support at University. I know this isn't a new situation, it's just suddenly dawned on me that I should've been working up to a point where in my second year I should've been producing my CV, going to interviews etc., and then in final year I should've applied for jobs or internships.
For me, I only really started applying for roles that where open to graduates in third year- usually sourced through my lecturers- towards the end. I feel I didn't and still really haven't put myself out there. This was due to a mix of despondency in my own abilities, no direction, laziness, but above all I struggled with mental health difficulties, so majority of third year and some of second year was spent playing 'catch up' with coursework.
I was always an abled student, highly achieving and almost a perfectionist, however, I could never really focus on anything but coursework- when that was done I had no time to do anything else.
Now, I've long graduated and I'm fighting for grad roles, and I've realised many of those before me and indeed in my class where probably well ahead of me- when I thought I was doing just fine, getting 2:1's in my modules, volunteering in students union, working a PT job while studying. They just seem to have done more than me, that is of value to employers.
I'm basically starting from zero now.
Anybody feel the same way?