Hi,
A brief whistle stop tour:
Met this guy in April 2014, a year later April 2015, we got chatting. Exchanged numbers & decided to meet for a drink. Got on well arranged for another date; dinner. Had great dinner, arranged to catch up, he came to my home. Nice evening of chatting & etc, agreed to meet again. Met again, went out for dinner, lovely evening, he came back to mine. Exchanged first kiss & he ended up spending the night. Nothing sexual happened & that was that. Arranged to see each other again; I cooked dinner, we chatted, watched tv & he stayed the night. Things got sexual, he asked for sex but I said no because I wasn't ready. Communication throughout was consistent until the not ready for sex whereby I think I dented his ego, as he himself said it felt right.
Communication broke down & I hadn't heard from him since Oct 2015. He'd been on my mind for ages so Feb 2016, I reached out, he replied almost instantly, v happy to hear from me. He mentioned about meet up soon, to which I agreed. I went away for a while shortly returned, and he suggests we catch up / spend weekend with one another. Wasn't expecting it but I agreed. Had a lovely weekend, & of course things got sexual & I agreed to sex, on my say so as it felt right. I enjoyed it & so did he. Following morning however was quiet / awkward! Often moments of silence & I didn't know what to say or do! We talk a little about things but lots of silent pauses! We said good bye, which was a hug & a peck on the cheek, & that was that!
Now I'm sat here thinking "what the heck?". I like this guy a lot, have done since April 2014, but things are just up in their air. No idea if the sex was a good idea now, was that all he really wanted all along, or is this how things develop? I've not said anything to him since as I'm not the type to blow up a guys phone & etc but seriously??
Any thoughts would be appreciated.