I'm lonely AF and I hate myself for bringing people down. Messed up the beginning of my life so bad, I could have been worth so much more. I could have had it all by now. Could have been the person people like to be around. Everything could have been so wonderful. I'm so stupid, ugly, boring inadequate. I can't face anyone. My confidence is dying. Everything is slow, I'm too tired and weak and scared of the world.to do things. I cant focus, everything is heavy.