If you can't succeed in high school (or a private school), you won't in society?

Excuses excuses. All talk and no action.

At least I hope we are, because I'm about to fail my third year of A levels

I had a 75% bursary to go to a boy's private school. I had 5 extremely outcast years in it. I used to be a fat, inhibited, bubble living kid. I didn't exactly grasp the social opportunities around me. I went to it between years 9 and 13. Before this school I went to 6 different state schools and I had problems in them too. I never made friends. I was bullied, targeted easily. I was weak. I as a child would blame people for problems that I created/were my own fault. In this private school, in my younger years there, I didn't know I should or could be social. I wasn't also that studious sadly. I revised at the last minute for my GCSEs and AS-levels. I would particularly revise subjects I enjoyed, like Biology GCSE (and that was my only A* at GCSE). I did literally every single maths textbook question for C1 maths and scored only 80% in it.

In year 13, in my final year in this school, I went through a crazy amount of overwhelming over thinking. I made a slightly social Darwinist observation of inequality. I thought you on the whole find more intelligent and attractive people around wealth, and I thought of the wealthy as genetically superior. I felt genetically inferior for 14 months around a few hundred million pounds worth of people, and had sex slave delusions. I left this school one year ago now in May 2015 with no A2s, no friends at all, no life whatsoever, nothing.

I got told by someone, a person who's been a trashcan for my thoughts, that 'if you cannot succeed in high school, how can you expect to succeed in real life/society?' When I reflect back on myself and my previous shortcomings, I see a guy, with some qualifications (1A*, 4As, 5BS, 1C at GCSE and ABDE at AS-level), who doesn't know yet decidedly what he wants to do, who's been a dickless, autistic, low test ****** who sits there playing with himself and expects things to come to him, lazy as **** and complains about everything, lies constantly and makes excuses for things that are his own fault.

Everything was at my disposal. Regardless of my bubble it's my own fault that I was given everything on a silver platter and I didn't take it, in any way. I'm sitting here, typing this, and the 5 years I had at this private school have resulted in me having absolutely nothing. I have truly nothing right now. I have to start afresh doing an Access to HE course in September... And right now I am massively contemplating whether I do an Access to Business course or an Access to Psychology course. I want to remain in education for a long time to make up for this emptiness and loneliness I am currently going through. I don't know whether I should do a subject which might genuinely interest me more, like Psychology, or whether I should do Business, what'd potentially lead to more fulfilling and fruitful employment.

I had a 75% bursary to go to a boy's private school. I had 5 extremely outcast years in it. I used to be a fat, inhibited, bubble living kid. I didn't exactly grasp the social opportunities around me. I went to it between years 9 and 13. Before this school I went to 6 different state schools and I had problems in them too. I never made friends. I was bullied, targeted easily. I was weak. I as a child would blame people for problems that I created/were my own fault. In this private school, in my younger years there, I didn't know I should or could be social. I wasn't also that studious sadly. I revised at the last minute for my GCSEs and AS-levels. I would particularly revise subjects I enjoyed, like Biology GCSE (and that was my only A* at GCSE). I did literally every single maths textbook question for C1 maths and scored only 80% in it.

In year 13, in my final year in this school, I went through a crazy amount of overwhelming over thinking. I made a slightly social Darwinist observation of inequality. I thought you on the whole find more intelligent and attractive people around wealth, and I thought of the wealthy as genetically superior. I felt genetically inferior for 14 months around a few hundred million pounds worth of people, and had sex slave delusions. I left this school one year ago now in May 2015 with no A2s, no friends at all, no life whatsoever, nothing.

I got told by someone, a person who's been a trashcan for my thoughts, that 'if you cannot succeed in high school, how can you expect to succeed in real life/society?' When I reflect back on myself and my previous shortcomings, I see a guy, with some qualifications (1A*, 4As, 5BS, 1C at GCSE and ABDE at AS-level), who doesn't know yet decidedly what he wants to do, who's been a dickless, autistic, low test ****** who sits there playing with himself and expects things to come to him, lazy as **** and complains about everything, lies constantly and makes excuses for things that are his own fault.

Everything was at my disposal. Regardless of my bubble it's my own fault that I was given everything on a silver platter and I didn't take it, in any way. I'm sitting here, typing this, and the 5 years I had at this private school have resulted in me having absolutely nothing. I have truly nothing right now. I have to start afresh doing an Access to HE course in September... And right now I am massively contemplating whether I do an Access to Business course or an Access to Psychology course. I want to remain in education for a long time to make up for this emptiness and loneliness I am currently going through. I don't know whether I should do a subject which might genuinely interest me more, like Psychology, or whether I should do Business, what'd potentially lead to more fulfilling and fruitful employment.

My point initially is that I left all of my years of schooling with truly, literally no friends... How much might this set me back in life in the long-term?

It won't. You have the rest of your life to make friends. Same goes for success in the workplace.

I think this is a bit optimistic. If you make it to 18 with "literally NO friends", that is a very bad sign for your people skills. Even I had some friends at school, and I'm pretty weird.