So I had a crush on this girl that I work with for like 8 months and today was her last shift and I never asked her out. Part of the reason was that she slept with other people and the first time she told me nothing about it and then the second time she basically made me ask her about it. I've never had a girlfriend and i'm still a virgin (i'm 18) and this makes me sad/annoyed. She was the closest thing I had to a 'girlfriend', I'm saying this because I've never had a girl as a friend she was the first and seems to be the last. I've said more words to her in 8 months than I have said to all the girls I've spoken to in 18 years. I know I need to get over her as it's not health but I just can't stop thinking about her. I think her leaving will help as I wont be working with her again and most likely wont see her again (she lives like 2 mins away from the shop).
Like right now I feel like I need to go to the gym to get her out of my head but I know if I go i'll still think about her, it's always like that. I sometimes message her and send her snaps but never get anything from it, a reply or 2 if i'm lucky.
I feel like I always need to be with people or i'm missing out of stuff, I don't like working but I love being near people and like right now I wish I was at work so I could have someone to talk to. I think all of this is because work is/was related to the person I had a crush on so I thought/think that the more I spend at work the more I'll see her and get to talk to her.
I don't know my head is in a thousand places at once!!