hey, just saw this and i know we were talking earlier. have been using the app so i don't know if you have replied to my message on the wall. anyway, i hope you are okay - take a deep breath and tell yourself that 'you can get through it.' try and get some sleep and hopefully things will be better in the morning. my counsellor says that whenever i have an anxious or OCD thought to try and focus on something that makes me feel 'calm' for a couple of minutes - a physical object. also, try and give your OCD a 'colour,' so you may envisage it as a red demon for example. then try and change the colour and characteristics of it - changing the colour to your favourite colour. it does work over a period of time.
try meditating as well, it is a great way to calm down and pull yourself out of the state. i use an app called 'insight timer' and it has proved to be quite beneficial. distracting yourself is a good idea as well, try and become engrossed in a good book or something. don't even try to challenge or give a response to your thoughts. just try an distract yourself.
no, you are not 'useless' in any way shape or form, you are one of the most kindest and nicest person that i have ever had the pleasure of talking to. it will be okay, just try and relax. what is the worst can happen? try and compare the scale of your thoughts to something else. or even do something which i do quite often, it aggravates the hell out of me though! i deliberately ignore my OCD thoughts or go against them, by doing the opposite action. it is tough, but it seems to be working - as my thoughts are subsiding.
if you need to cry, then cry. crying isn't a sign of weakness - it just shows that a person has been strong for so long. once you have cried and let it all out tell yourself that you will 'never cry over the same thought/s ever again.'
hope i helped and made you feel slightly better. remember, you are wonderful and the world needs more people like you around; people with pure hearts.
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