I'm sure they have messed with my "medication". I don't think I should take it. My wife got mad when I suggested so I've taken it but I'm worried it will hurt me it's far too easy to do I'm not home during the day. And there's hundreds of ants which I'm sure have something to do with it too. I know that sounds strange but I put poison down last week and there's hundreds more of the ****ing things now. I think maybe they have something bad on their feet spreading it about? There are little clicks and whirling noises when I'm upstairs on my own - sounds a lot like a camera(s), been hearing these sounds all day following me about. Just seems a bit coincidental that they only happen where I am.I had an exam this morning and couldn't concentrate at all. All the other students were whispering about and laughing at me the professor gave out cookies at the end - probably explains why I've had such a bad stomach ache since. Damn my sweet tooth, I shoulld have realized it was a trap. I keep getting really bad stomach aches, I think it's a reaction to whatever they've done to my "medication" or the ants or something in the fridge I'm talking like 9/10 on a pain scale I left class on monday to curl in a ball on a chair outside for a good 15 minutes so something is being messed with for definite. There are so many things going on and I don't know who to talk to. My wife shouted at me last night when I was crying because she doesn't see why I have to "ruin everything every time you get anywhere near succeeding" like I invite the voices to shout at me or something. they are so ****ing loud all the time recently I can't think straight there's no relief I don't know who to talk to.
Sorry kind of rambled, it's easier to think if I write what I'm thinking, they can't steal that from me.