I used to have a really unorthodox specific type of anxiety in around year 10 which I recovered by myself in a few weeks/months and have been fine ever since.
A few weeks ago I was doing my A levels. I had done 2 and had 3 to go and was feeling quite positive about it. However two nights before my 3rd exam I had my first ever proper panic attack, completely randomly whilst I was lay in bed on my phone. It was awful and I thought I was going to die. It was adrenaline in my chest followed by my head caving in.
Then in my 3rd exam for the most part I was okay but then, again completely out of the blue, the adrenaline went straight for my head this time for about 5 seconds and thankfully I was able to control myself (I think knowledge of my past anxiety helped me to control this.) My next exam was a day after and thanks to my lovely former English teacher I was able to be moved to a smaller room with less people, and apart from on one or two occasions the anxiety 'attempted' to hit me, I was okay.
After that exam I went to the doctors to talk about it. Just talking about it or thinking about it was one of the main triggers of the panic trying to hit me. I was prescribed some drugs, I actually can't remember - either beta blockers or benzodiazepine. However I didn't want to take them because I knew they would never treat the cause, and I didn't want to become reliant on them.
In the next few days I had a few scares but in my final exam I was okay. And that's about where I am right now. I'm generally okay however I wish I knew the cause. I thought it could be exams but I've still had a few scares and adrenaline rushes since my final exam. Or I feel it could be fear of dying. Or I'm very conscious about my eating so it could be eating junk food and thinking of the implications. If I knew it would be much easier but it just feels random. It's annoying because it feels 90% gone, but whenever I accidentally think about it, even typing this, all the adrenaline starts to come back and I have to stop myself again.
I have absolutely no idea where this was going, I just like to speak out about things.