Just realized I already posted about this lol
I didn’t know what to right I was actually very embarrassed though this whole thing trying to make it seem innocent lol but I know it’s not I’m trying ok.... And I ended up deleting all of it and restarting twice! Added a little humor so you don’t think I’m some sicko. I might be XD..I do stalk I’m the type of girl who is shy at school very tall. But on other sides of school I am am a stalker......Any better word for stalker? But I am also the type to have a stalker relationship with my crushes AND maybe people I like... no ok you got me. my first day of kindergarten I met this teacher..she had black hair a white shirt and some pants or a skirt. Guess what I said. MOM LOOK HOW PRETTY SHE IS! And that’s basically when it started not really..fast forward to 3 grade. I didn’t know it yet but as you can tell yes yes yes yessss I’m embarrassed to say it but what your thinking is correct. Whenever I saw her I got kinda embarrassed for some reason. But when I went into 5 grade and I was officially in middle school I missed her and I became anxious to see her. I kinda liked the excitement of being embarrassed or just adrenaline or something I felt that with her and it was like a game kinda but I...i don’t know...when I got to see my first teacher in 5 grade I said something similar MISS MARSDEN? Yes my kindergarten teachers name was miss.Marsden. But I realized it was someone else like miss.L just in case someone saw this who was one of my teachers I wanna keep names a little privet. But ima just say it anyway miss.Lund looked so much like her. And I got that same reaction a few months later when I would get embarrassed and everything would slow down when she got in my classroom for a mint. I’m not explaining. It’s a reward for being on time to school. But anyway Yes that was the normal sign of lOvE...no I’m joking *maybe* yeah ok I’m really not 😶😶😶 ok and I realized it was not normal...yeah ok I already knew it. But anyway I guess I’m strange I kinda act all nervous being around her and I did whatever she asked on homework. But with other teachers it was different I am weird I know. It was like I liked trying to get her attention but to nervous to accomplish it. *wow a grown up word*. And I liked that maybe she could see me looking at her then away it sounds more wrong then it actually was. But I try not to look at her at all to play sky actually no I am just shy towards her. I knew it was bad but it’s like I like not being able to like someone...which is a problem for me she is married *yayyyy* to a dumb ken guy and my kindergarten teacher is married to a stupid Kevin guy * jealous? Yes! she has a kid *yayyyy just like any other person I like *yayy* ok I’m lying *yayyy* but anyway should I say it? No you already know. I only stalk for that reason I’m rebelling and I can’t stop XD wow great title for a movie hmmm 🤔. But I’ve seen some new side affects of this. Lol whenever she is near I feel a breeze but everything is so slow but then it’s fast but it’s slow at the same time without looking at her face I know who it is just by walking. I already have very great hearing but I’m slightly faded hearing for the high heels noise of the ground. Lol so most of my attention is actually on that. It’s nice being able to tell someone but I haven’t really told you about the stalking yet...since you already know I like being not able to do something I hate not being able to do something at all if that makes any sense. I haven’t seen my kindergarten teacher in awhile and I can't do anything so I actually had to stalk...I’m running out of things to stalk of actually the most I do is look on Pinterest but one problem is I think I’m jealous....they look so pretty and I’m like....a cow next to them not weight wise but I feel like a cow sorry cows they are cute but I wouldn’t wanna be standing in my own poop. And whenever I see them looking at keto and fitness ok maybe it is the weight lol. I feel annoyed I’m like thinking in my head. UGH YOUR PERFECT ALREADY you don’t need any of that. Lol still do. And it’s still the same to this day dun dun Dunn.I think why I put so much of my information or whatever is because I actually secretly want them to read it Alright I need some help lollllll