Finding it hard to be thankful

Try and go through the summer without: a home, family, a mobile phone and you'll be more thankful.

I don't own a phone because I don't have the need for one.

I know i should be thankful I have free education,food,a home and family.But i am find it so hard to be thankful I don't want to wake up anymore I hate life all I ever do is clean,study and the best place I go to is grocery shopping my family used to go out frequently I have no went out for months.I am feeling extreme melancholy cleaning,cleaning studying and studying I just want to be happy i don't feel confident I feel hideous I hate myself and life.