Honestly? You don’t cope.
I’ve been unemployed and on universal credit since I graduated in June and have had the most horrendous year. From being 0.5% off of a first in my degree, to the endless rejections I got, even the Hilton Hotel rejected me for a zero hour contract housekeeping role. My mental health got so bad this summer that my mother dragged me to the doctor’s in July and I was given a sickline for severe anxiety for four weeks but the Job Centre completely disregarded this and forced me to keep looking for work, trying to push me into B2B sales. My mental health got so bad that last month when the bus I was waiting on didn’t come, I started crying and shouting at no one and had a complete breakdown. (Funny how the usual poverty porn on channel 5 never shows this side of being on benefits) I’ve also been diagnosed with IBS and the doctor thinks my anxiety is the main aggravator.
I’ve finally found a job with Ikea, 16 hours a week so maybe £100 than I was getting in Universal Credit and I didn’t tell anyone for a week (minus JCP obvs) because I couldn’t believe it was real. I have my induction this weekend so fingers crossed.
I don’t have an overdraft and the loans don’t get paid if I’m not making a decent salary so I’m not fussed about that but the complete feeling that you have failed, that four years of hard work mean nothing and that you’ll be stuck in this cycle of low wages and unable to actually move out, get on the property ladder, start paying ****ing tax, get a car etc are sometimes unbearable. You feel frozen, stagnant. You feel like you are suffocating. You feel condemned. It’s overwhelming.
My advice? Well at some point in September after more job rejections I stopped taking it personally, my mind was unable to tolerate anymore self-hatred, I redrafted and redrafted my CV, I took more and more time researching companies I was applying to, did more competency answers, went to my cities graduate fair and even this week I was still going into my university at 7am to use the computers to apply for graduate schemes that start in Sept 2017 (though haven’t had much luck)
Just remember, that you matter, you worked hard and you will find your way. This year has been one of my worst but as corny as it sounds, all these hardships have made me stronger, tougher. Everyone in this thread has to remember that we aren’t alone, we’re in the same boat. We’ll get through this.