If this ever get found and read by someone. Please note that I am not an expert. I don’t claim to know all the answers tolife and its troubles. I am basically a one person in the 7 billion peopleworld sharing their story in hopes that what I have learned would help at leastone person. It sounds sort of cheesy, but it true.I have always considered myself to sufferfrom anxiety.
Social anxiety, fear, depression etc. I believed that I had thesymptoms of every mental condition that screws with your head and stops youfrom achieving the things you want to do. I have seen and met many people who Ibelieve were in the same situation. Some people find empowering “you can do it!”speeches work and motivates them to leave that rut. Others turn to medication. PersonallyI don’t believe that this is a helpful solution. Don’t get me wrong, there is alot of evidence based medicine out there which have proven the theories that itworks. But I see this solution like this metaphor: let’s say a pipe burst andwater spills everywhere as a result. Instead of attending to the damaged pipe,you decided to place a bucket in front of the spewing water. Replacing thebucket each time it fills up. In the case the bucket represents the medicationand the water the mental issue. The medication works to fix the issue but onlytemporarily. The main problem still exists.
I have seen people that don’t pity those inmy position. They feel as though we are doing this on purpose. We are reallystupid because we have the tools in front of us but do nothing about it. Yes,we have the tools and means to do whatever we want to but we can’t. I can’tsometimes. Mental issue in my opinions is the worst sickness you can ever have.And to blame the individual is just wrong…to an extent. Let me explain. In mostcases there is an underlining reason why people allow themselves to sink intothis feeling. In my case it was fear of failure. If I never try I never fail. Simpleas. Fear of something bad occurring, if I was never there it can never happen. “I’mjust gonna stay in my little bubble and protect myself from the harsh reality oflife”. I waited for people to come save me. To show me the way and guide medown the right path so I don’t have to look for it myself. But after years of waitingI realised that no one is going to do that for me. I have to do it myself. Staying in that bubble helps you but italso destroys you. It saves you but also breaks you by not allowing you to dowhat makes you happy.
This is not an inspirational speech, it a reality check.If you don’t do the things that make you happy you’re going to regret it. Your bubblemay protect from the fear of failure but guess what? By staying in there youare guaranteed to fail. At least when you step out you have a chance ofsuccess. But you have to work hard to get it! I want you to imagine you had a magic wand. Now, dream up your perfect life (andbe realistic. No point in saying I want a billion dollar next week). Anythingat all that you want put in that dream and be as detailed as you can. Seems scary, huh? To even imagine it. But you can achieve it. Nothing in this world can’tbe gotten by hard work. Work hard. Look at your dream life and look at yourlife now, and think of the steps you need to get from A to B. Then go for it! Itis as simple as that.
It’s actually not as complicated as your mind makes itout to be (trust me, I know how screwed up things can get in there) Whenever you feel down recall that dream lifeand continue to work hard again. Lastly (as this is a long ass statement) besure to enjoy the journey. No need to punish yourself, enjoy yourself but do itcautiously- suffer now, to enjoy later J