My depression is back and I've ruined my relationship

Do you suffer from bipolar?


I'm asking this in a very genuine way rather than making a childish joke.

No. Although I was (mis)diagnosed with bipolar in the past. But I don't, I've always had these mood shifts, that's just my personality, not a 'mental illness'.

I could get over the money very easily, the fact you did ''something'' with your friends partner, not so much.

Yeah. That wasn't the first time, either, so I can't blame him. But I just thought that I hated him. So I didn't care, I know it sounds strange. But I actually wanted to break up with him. It was a mistake, I don't know why I thought that.

I personally don't understand how someone can do this to their partner, then shortly after regret, I'm not even telling you off since I know this sort of thing is really common.

My happy mood lasted less than a week. And now I'm ****ing depressed. AGAIN. And during that short time, I've managed to completely wreck my amazing relationship. Not to mention the fact that I also spent a lot of money on various useless stuff (I had access to the money but it was my partner's money. I didn't 'steal' it but he's annoyed as hell because of what I spent the money on). My friend is annoyed with me too, because of what I did with their partner (I was drunk, I feel bad about it now). There's just no cure for this ****. Kill me #endrant

No. Although I was (mis)diagnosed with bipolar in the past. But I don't, I've always had these mood shifts, that's just my personality, not a 'mental illness'.

If you haven't by now, issue a grovelling apology to your partner and friend and less of the drinking

It may be worth seeing a psychotherapist as it is possible that you have a personality disorder (i.e. it is your personality but the personality is outside a normal functioning range). If that turns out to be the case, they may be able to help - but personality disorders are generally harder to treat than mental illness as it is literally someone's personality. Sorry to be blunt.

My happy mood lasted less than a week. And now I'm ****ing depressed. AGAIN. And during that short time, I've managed to completely wreck my amazing relationship. Not to mention the fact that I also spent a lot of money on various useless stuff (I had access to the money but it was my partner's money. I didn't 'steal' it but he's annoyed as hell because of what I spent the money on). My friend is annoyed with me too, because of what I did with their partner (I was drunk, I feel bad about it now). There's just no cure for this ****. Kill me #endrant

U are letting the depression act as an excuse for you being reckless an

WTF, you are supposed to be merciful, Jesus. IMPOSTER.