If you're given medication, no one other than you has to know about it. That being said, they will really want you to try counselling again. That may be a condition to get medication, considering it's not the clearest issue. Speak to your GP, your family cannot be told anyway, and if they want to refer you then agree. Explain that you've had a bad experience with counselling before and that's it's put you off. If you don't mesh very well with your therapist then you'll have a harder time, but give it a second chance. It took me three attempts until I actually found that it can help and that it can be very useful to me. Good luck