I've been working at McDonald's for a month. The work itself is not difficult and some of the people are great.
But I suffer from depression/anxiety and I don't think this job is helping. I'm going to uni in September and I'd like to start going to the gym regularly and doing some reading in preparation for my course. I'd like to get a first and do a postgrad degree but I doubt I'd even get a 2.2 right now as my brain is always foggy and my memory is terrible. I think this would improve if I made my lifestyle healthier. I know most people are able to hold down a part time job while going to the gym and doing a bit of reading but I just can't.
I work 3/4 days per week. When I'm not at work, all I can do is watch shows on netflix and dread my next shift. The shifts are usually okay but I can't help feeling anxious the day before. I've also tried going to the gym after work (it's cheaper to do so as I already have a bus ticket for that day), but I'm always exhausted. I'm also scared of my muscles aching during my shift.
When I have a bad day at work, it brings my mood down for the whole day and it's unnecessary stress. For example, there's a guy there (who isn't even a trainer), who constantly barks after me if I'm a bit slow. Yesterday he shouted at me for running to get more lettuce while dressing big macs. When he does this, I end up feeling really anxious and making mistakes. The funny thing is, when he's not been there in the past, I've managed to run the burger production area without any supervision. Sometimes I'me completely alone and sometimes it's just me leading another trainee doing a job that usually requires 3 people.
Anyway, it feels like I'm just a quitter and I'm making excuses. Do you think my reasons for quitting are legit? I feel down because a lot of people juggle work and uni, but I can't even handle work, the gym, and uni prep work. What should I do? If i quit, I won't have money but I'd rather have no money than be unprepared for my degree. Gym membership is not an issue as my parents pay for it.