Feeling flat about everything no motivation

First things first, ask yourself what could have caused this problem. What made you lose your enthusiasm? Was it just an exhaustive phase? If so, you need to take a break from it all.
Do things you love for a bit. Just whatever makes you happy, be it friends, travelling, music, anything.

Secondly, you need to know where your true interest lie, whether it is the same path you are on or a different one. According to that you can re-adjust. For example, you would not want to eat something you don't like right? It just seems wrong. The same way, doing something you don't like is wrong. You said you "flit from idea to idea". I suggest you take each of those ideas into consideration. Make a list of pros and cons to do with each one and weigh up your decision.

What is your passion? What would you like to wake up and do? Whatever this may be, it is what you thought of firsthand.

Psychologically speaking, your brain seems to find routine in your depression. What I mean by this is that, unlike the majority of people who suffer from depression, you have a lot of energy. That energy could be channelled into something such as sports or yoga for example. Yes, it may sound "lame", doing yoga or meditation but trust me it really helps. If you go to youtube and search JBitterSweet 30 Day Meditation Challenge, I'm sure it will make you feel a lot better both physically and mentally. This could help you get a clearer head for focusing on the next chapter of your life.

Think about this, 5 years ago, what did you see yourself achieving? Are you proud of what you achieved? If not, why?

If you need any thoughts on anything at all, feel free to just ask

I think what caused this problem was slow gradual lack of interest in my subject, which progressively got worse as I advanced through my education. I studied design at college level then university. The main reasons for this was because as a child (and even now) I had a vivid imagination and loved constructing things in my head- both written and visual- and so after years of flitting from subject to subject- wanting to be good at something- I decided to study design/media as it was a personal passion and hobby.

However, what happened as I progressed was that the more I studied it, in certain aspects my overall interest declined due to the fact I didn't see the return on investment in working in the arts- no money to be made.

I always told myself I wasn't really a capitalist sort of person, but I guess I'm in denial.

I still liked and in some ways enjoy what I do, but I don't see it as much as a sustainability as I once did, and this kind of led to the decline of my motivations.

I enjoy the theory, the psychology behind design, however, most practitioners don't take it so seriously. They see art as art, and social scientists/psychologists and the human sciences probably wouldn't consider such a sphere of subject. That's not to say there hasn't been stuff written on it, its just that its all speculation from modernist social scientists.

What I like most is challenging the status quo and coming up with new ways of thinking, constructing design and communicating purpose. I studied communications theory and semiotics in relation to health advertising at uni. However, it all seems flowery to employers- albeit interesting- and I don't think that they would take me so seriously.

I enjoy what makes people tick. Creating things that shape peoples perceptions and helping people through that medium. Constructing visual stuff that can contribute to positive lifestyle changes.

So in short, the above is really what happened and why my interest declined. But whether it's enough to maintain a career who knows. Perhaps I may stumble across a niche area that I excel in. When you get me talking about design like I just have I become empowered and driven, however, sometimes I get tired as I'm career driven and when things don't go my way I get impatient and avoid failure.

I remember when I was at university, one of my lecturers told me once: "you really believe all that stuff/nonsense", while referring to my dissertation topic. I said yes I do. Which I found disrespectful as he was my favourite lecturer, he was sort of dismissing my work as not of any real value, while simultaneously I understood his point. I was conflicted and my self esteem too a hit.

Now on to what I enjoy-- this is difficult because what I initially enjoyed I turned into a sort of career and pursued that at Uni. I don't have any real hobbies outside my creativity and perhaps thats the issue. No real down time, just constantly pursuing that 'next big thing' the new idea or the revolutionary/visionary ideas. While not really knowing what 'that' is.

All things considered, i have applied for work within the healthcare sector taking my ideas with me, and have detailed these somewhat in covering letters and the like. I have experienced mixed success and I do feel I carry some value to employers, its getting that break I desperately need- while maintaining my mental health!

I'm very very proud of all that I have achieved-- looking back gives me perspective. It's just right now in this moment I've sort of stopped achieving as I'm in a rut. I would never have thought I'd go to University or even leave school.

See, not to give my life story, I was born with a disability and confined to a wheelchair for the earlier-most part of my life. This shaped a lot of who I am today and I had to find the inner strength and determination to prove folk wrong. This is where my purpose actually comes from I guess.

I achieved that. Ten-Fifteen years later, and I guess I feel lost. I've achieved all I wanted to at this point, it's just my plan didn't go beyond this.