Ok, so this is going to be slightly long so please bare with me. I'll be moving from Manchester to London - East London Uni. This is just for first year because I love the city. Anyway, I;m the kind of perosn with loads of hopes, passions and aspirations but not once in my life have I put myself up there to people. i see these popular people or even people my age doing awesome stuff and I die insice a bit because I know i'm capable of all of that, I have the passion, personality and love for things like that. Yet something, whether it's fear or opporitunuty stops me. Im hiding it and on the outside showing a confident face but i'm petrified about Uni. I will be living in the student village there and the thought of having flat mates etc genuinly scares me. Im **** at negotating or even getting a point across and above that, I'm literally **** at banter hahaha..I also am not into parties or things like that and a lot of people go to some where like london for that... AND I would call myself rather weird. I'm the type to aim to live a carefree life and all woo but i never actually do, I just end up being the girl on the side with one other friend who probably uses me to get around college. Even though, I see the crowd or friends I was born to be with. I guess moving away, will teach me more about myself and teach me how to stand up for myself etc but its just the thought of failing that scares me. This whole time I had an excuse, now I dont. The whole world is infront of me. Any opportunity. What if I dont use it ?
Sorry about the little rant guys. Hope you's understand..