So I moved into my accomodation on Monday. I came quite late, so I didn't get to meet anyone from the flat. I have still yet to meet/talk to anyone. I hear people around, but whenever I'm in the kitchen there's no one there, and I don't hear a lot of movement.
Well, until yesterday, I was taking the lift, and two people started walking up the stairs. It was quite awkward because I realised they were in my flat when they came the same way as me. Then I hear one of them say, 'this is why I took the stairs,' from behind me, and I assume that is quite clearly about me. I don't get it. I've never spoken to these people, and now I don't even want to.
When I first came here, I was determined to meet them, constantly standing in the kitchen/hallway, but now I'm really afraid to. It's worse for me because I have really bad anxiety, so I haven't been able to stop thinking about this. It's so bad that now I avoid the kitchen, and haven't been back since. I've never had a lot of friends, so when I went to uni I wanted to put myself out there and actually try to socialise, but I guess the same will always happen to me. I was stupid to think that anything would change, and I would actually make friends.
To top it off, I met people from the building, and even they don't want to know me. I put myself out there by asking this girl I was talking to if she wanted to go out, she said today that she couldn't, and I know that she's lying. Even if she isn't, I don't dare to ask her again, and I know she won't ask. I asked another girl too, and she has read my message and not responded.
I came here with high hopes, expecting it to be different. I have tried so hard, pushed myself out of my comfort zone, but it doesn't pay off. I always end up being hated/the loner. People always say to put yourself out there, get out of your shell, then you'll make friends, but this isn't working for me at all. When I'm quiet I don't make friends, when I actually try, I don't make friends. I don't know what else to do. Anyone have advice? Or does anyone have anxiety too?