I'm basically beginning to feel increasingly stressed out over my job. Not only am I surrounded by bullies, it is toxic, degrading, and it's eroding any sense of self-esteem I might have had (if I had any)- but, I feel uneasy about my ability to maintain the job any longer.
The reason I feel lack of security is because they keep cutting my hours down and down, finding any excuse to cut labour and send me off early. In many cases, they've offered me extra days off. Problem is, because of my mental health state its easier said than done to say 'yeah sure' because I'm unwell and the job is burning me out. Gives me the excuse of actually taking more time out and no pay. I've nearly exhausted all my paid leave.
The job isn't a long term career as I work in a dead end job, but it pays my bills and the more they cut my hours, the more it seems they want to get rid of me and push me out. It's happened before with others they didn't like.
On top of all of this, I am not the best in my job- in the sense I am not as fast as the others. I work fast food so obviously its a big part. I do my job and perform my tasks, but it takes me longer (i'm disabled- but not immobile). I often hear members of staff ****ging me off, and it feels they just put up with me.
I fear before long I will not be able to pay bills, because I'll either leave due to meltdown, or be pushed out and/or fired.