first off. i know, i'm 17. why should i be a mess? wait till i get to x years old or x part of my life, then i'll really be in deep ****. also, why should i be so ungrateful? i have clean water, three meals a day, clothes, a house, education? i have the perfect life. so i should stop whining and get on with it.
i know all of this. but at the same time, i just can't
idek where this has come from. i just...idk. so much has happened. good and bad. well not really bad but i have opened my eyes and realized what's happening.
the good is really good, but when i think about the good, it reminds me of the bad and i feel ****. obviously people care about me, i know that like 5 people genuinely care about my well being, but they can't be around all the time you know? it's just i sit here, at 11:41 and feel miserable. and i'm like
look homeland, man up stop feeling sorry for yourself but idk.
this doesnt even make sense. i just want to do something. meh. none of this made sense, why am i even posting this. i know the responses will be like "awww don't worry everything will be ok
" it wont. i appreciate the sentiment but it wont.
erm. yeah vent over i guess? was this even a vent? probably not. i also burnt my tongue while drinking my coffee so that's annoying.
i'm not really expecting much in terms of replies so dw? idk i hope you all have a nice day
also when something says allegro i expect it to be allegro, not andante just putting that out there