Mental Health Support Society XVIII

It will sound contradictory which makes me wonder if I even have a "host". To keep myself safe I built an observer/analyser part and when they are in control, I'm aware of more parts and the parts talk to her rather than switch to be heard. But sometimes it takes me a while to know I've changed too.

I guess that's because for the most part my cognition isn't affected too badly with older teen sort of age. It's more like realising after the fact that I've been emotionally responding very differently. But it's not always that clear either.

I used to be really bad for contradicting myself. And both points would feel true. It's been much easier to be honest about thoughts and feelings now I can say, this part thinks this and this part thinks this.

Do you find you contradict yourself much?

That sounds like a really horrible cough 🙁 You're not pathetic, it's okay to feel overwhelmed.

Hugs if okay

TW for discussion of abuse

Yeah, it is pretty bad. I think a different medical condition I have is causing it, just one problem after another.

I think it's not ok to feel overwhelmed. It's not as if other people at this university don't have the same or even more work than me to do and they manage. I'm scraping Ds and it seems that all the people around me have high Bs or even As. How do they manage to fit everything in - I mean, I don't even have friends so socializing doesn't exactly take much out of my week. But I feel completely unable to cope. People around me are coping, I am not and I do not know how to turn things around.


I read your posts to TLG, I hope you don't mind me asking, do you have a formal diagnosis? You may have mentioned it before (sorry, terrible memory).

i'm being admitted to hospital and i'm just so ****ing terrified

Feel rough today, think a day in bed is needed.

Hugs to all that need them

Just wanted to let you guys know that 'Mental Health Awareness Week' won project of the year at the Support Team meet this year

Just wanted to let you guys know that 'Mental Health Awareness Week' won project of the year at the Support Team meet this year

Just wanted to let you guys know that 'Mental Health Awareness Week' won project of the year at the Support Team meet this year

Have a bad flare up out the blue for no specific reason with a physical condition - people understand that flare ups can just happen for no reason and they give you time to get through it

Have a flare up or setback with your mental condition without anything bad or stressful happening to cause it, at least in their eyes - you get told to get a grip and you shouldn't be in that situation since 'nothing has happened'

Mental health conditions are just as unpredictable as any physical condition. You can have a few good days and then for no reason, you're at your worst. I don't understand how people think saying **** like "Why are you in this state again?" or "are you not out of it yet?!" is going to help anyone during a flare up, mental or physical ffs


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Therapy is kicking my butt at the moment and I'm a bit cross with my therapist. He struggles when I dissociate (which is fine, it's hard to focus when I'm in that state) but then he wants to poke on the very thing that makes me the most dissociated. I slur and struggle to speak. I know the point is to eventually poke enough that the dissociation lessens but I hate making him angry/frustrated. I also hate how much this is bringing out child parts. I don't name my parts. Sometimes think would be easier so we all know when someone new is in charge.

Anyway. I'm overwhelmed and worried that I won't be able to do uni because, you know, a 6 year old can't do uni. Well unless a genius.

Hugs back, hope you feel better tomorrow