I could do with some support guys. i appreciate people taking time to read this post.
im a 26 year old graduate. I graduated with a degree in IT.
i have been dealing with depression, anxiety, OCD and Alcoholism since 2012.
the story starts like this, in 2012 i suffered with a major breakdown, i felt terrible and actually felt suicidal for the first time in my life. i started getting random panic attacks ( i didnt even know thats what they were). to make a long story short i got help from friends and family and went for counselling. it was fortunate for this to happen in summer, so it didnt conflict with my studies. anyway i got better and things were ok, i was frequently seeing a counselor ( hes an awsome guy and i still see him today).
fast forward to the near end of my degree back in 2013, i suffered with a
terrible identity crisses and OCD.im not going to go into what exactly my crisis was ( because everythings fine now) its all good now. and during this second wave of
obsession i developed a really dangerous drinking problem.i was a Jobless graduate, who sat around all day drinking and listening to Elliott Smith. i WASTED 3 ****ing years of my life
not persuing a career in IT or even doing positive things. I.T. isnt really my passion, i must be honest. BUT i really want a form of professional/decent salaried work.
as soon as 2014 hit i finally got myself a job at a warehouse, it was ( and still is) liberating to be able to help my mum with the bills. the problem is however i wasted 3 years not building a professional career for myself. I still live at home and have struggled greatly over these past 3 years with my personal issues. but i have realsied that i cant switch off the rest of my life. if anything hitting 26 made me realsise how fast life can travel. i was 20, blew a fart and than hit 26 overnight LOL. being depressed and substance abusing ate up my time. i have learnt from this.
I turned 26 back in january and now going through a huge qautre Life crisis.
my depression ruined a huge chunk of my 20's, and i feel like i am just throwing away the most important years of my life. i turn 27 in january
this past summer i have been taking serious consideration for fixing this ****, fixing my ****ed up life.
1)Im going to get help with my addiction to alcohol
2)im learning to drive ( yes i left it way too late)
3)im going to try my best to get a high paying IT job. i need your advice and supprt. I graduated 3 YEARS ago with only a 2.2
4) i need to earn enough to move out and start my life. living at home with my mum is somthing i have to say goodbye to and move on.
5) continue to work on my problems with my counselor
i cant believe my OCD and personal issues ate up 3 ****ing years
im sorry if this post seems "mechanical" or if it lacks good story telling, the truth is i am hung over. and tired. i need advice on applying for interships, is it all too late ? thanks for reading i await anyones support. thank you