Crying right now, I feel so ****ing stupid and so ****. Everything that I've "worked" for in the past 2 months has literally just gone down the drain. I feel so so so stupid. And I'm so done with my mother, I feel like when she comes back I'm just gonna explode and make sure I hurt her physically. I can't even use my vent app or message anyone because I've had to turn off my phone so I'd stop receiving her text messages which made me nearly get a hammer and smash my phone. I thought I finally found something that would allow me to reach my goal and my eventual dream and now I feel like I'm exactly where I was 2 months ago. Upset, confused, disappointed and a mess. I feel like I've climbed up this mountain and I've just slipped off and now I'm all the way at the bottom and I have to climb it all again. I'm so disappointed in myself. The thing that frustrates me the most about this situation are my parents. I'm not even going to talk about my mother because I will end up writing things that are not allowed on TSR. But my dad thinks that I finally managed to find something on my own and strive to my career path with my own route and now he's going to think its all ******** and he'll know he was right all along.
I'm so so so so so upset.