Hi, just a random thought I've been having.
Sometimes, I kind of wish I didn't experience sexual/romantic desire. Having crushes on boys has caused me a lot of aggravation - jealousy and stuff like that. I really do feel as though it brings out the absolute worst in me. I often wonder what my life would be like if I had zero interest in sexual and romantic relationships. I feel like I would be feeling jealous, down and pressured a lot less, but how can I possibly know?
Like I often feel sad about being single, about having no one to 'cuddle' - I think it would be quite nice if I had no interest whatsoever in finding someone to cuddle, to love me. I would be forced to gain my satisfaction elsewhere, through hobbies for example, which can only be a good thing I think. I often hear of people being obsessed with one person, who doesn't feel the same way, for like 5 years and I honestly couldn't think of anything worse than that! So much time wasted.
I hate how I find myself pining for a relationship. I hate how I sometimes feel 'hollow' and as though I'm majorly missing out. I hate how I feel as though a relationship will complete me, make me happier, make me feel 'grown-up'. I just wonder what I would desire if I didn't desire romantic relationships. What would be my passion?
I'm glad I've put this out there