Random update.
I received a letter around 2 weeks ago from a consultant psychiatrist which asked me to make an appointment to see her at my local hospital as she'd received numerous requests from my doctor for referral. I got the appointment and went last Tuesday to see her. I was so nervous and upset before I went in because I didn't know what to expect, but she was lovely and we just chatted for a while. She asked about my childhood and background and then went on to ask all about my relationship with food, my binging and purging behaviour, triggers, feelings ect. She then explained my eating disorder (bulimia nervosa) in detail and during all this I was crying like a baby but I couldn't help it, it just felt too real after being in denial for so long. She then explained that she's going to refer me the psychological team for cognitive behavioural therapy, but it's unlikely that I'll actually have it until February/March. She then said that a bmi would perhaps allow me access to help from other health professionals in the timje being, but I refused to be weighed as I hadn't purged all day so I felt so disgusting and bloated, I just couldn't do it.
As well as bulimia I've been diagnosed with anxiety and depression, so she was recommended that I take Prozac (is anyone here on it? does it work?). She a told me that I need to take take frequent blood tests, frequent cvg tests, and book an appointment with my dentist for advice on my teeth.
Since seeing her I've been a bit of a wreck.. just continually crying, even more snappy at everyone, lost all patience, and I broke down in work on Friday. Right now I'd rather die than live like this.