Sorry to intrude but I was wondering if someone here might be able to offer a little advice...
It's been going on for a while but I've only noticed it enough to be worried in the last two weeks or so. I keep crying for no real reason - tonight and last night I broke down on the phone to my boyfriend over the most insignificant things. I'm absolutely inconsolable when this happens, I just cry until my body can't keep it up really. I used to go out with my friends twice a week. Now I go out half that amount and if I really had my way it'd be once a fortnight or less I imagine - I go because I don't want to let people down or drift away from people. I just say I'm short of money, tired, ill, arguing with my boyfriend... I rarely fall asleep before 3am, but sleep very late if my lectures allow, and nap a lot. I'm not sure if that's a symptom or just my weird sleep pattern though.
I've been like this (often much worse) in the past, although I've never told a doctor or my family. That lasted years, and I was suicidal and occasionally self harming at its worst. I kicked the self harming before it got serious and eventually the feelings cleared up... and that spontaneous remission is what makes me think it wasn't a clinical problem. I spilled this to 'friends' while drunk last year and one of them later assured me that I was making it up for attention. I'm an anxious person, and have also experienced heart palpitations that my doctor put down to stress after not finding anything else abnormal.
The problem I'm having is not knowing whether this is real or not. I don't really remember how it felt when it was starting last time. I don't want to waste a doctors time, and I wonder what they could really do anyway. I'm in my first year, but it isn't homesickness and I don't want to be told that. My relationship is long distance and I originally attributed things to just missing him, but I'm not sure it can be solely that. He is incredibly supportive and the only one I've told about this so far.
Sorry for the essay... I guess I'm just wondering if you have any experiences that could help me. Thanks.